Just living now …
When I think of other things to do, or attempt to do other things, it just doesn’t work out for me.
I learned I should be doing what I want and that it should be unique to me. I learned to find people who I can work with.
Trying to work out there with everyone is just a headache. I will just work with my good positive friends.
Trying to work with everyone is impossible to maintain and a waste of time as I know it is based on a hierarchy that may exclude me. Also as I get older I need to specialize and not try to be ‘all knowing’. I know enough about this ‘duality problem’ and my time with it is done. I will just coast …
I developed my brain to do abstraction, logic and problem solving. I love abstraction.
By keeping the brain active and doing things that are humanistic is all I need.
There is so much to learn. Everyone has a particular skill set that is unique and beneficial. All you have to do is do what you like.
I will just live this way.
I lost everything else and abstraction is all I have now.
Everything else I did so far I met walls. I can not scale the wall but I understand the wall. Abstraction is the key.
I like abstraction. I will just focus on abstraction, not math but abstraction. It is something there but not.
By doing stuff, I reached a point in my life that I realized I should just keep busy. Keep very, very busy.
Keeping busy is something I learned that I must do to keep happy and well. I do not have time to think negatively or think of things that are out of my control when I am kept very busy.
Computers keeps me busy. It is pretty fun ‘work’. It is the most fun ‘work’ I had without having to leave home.
Also I learned to always keep connected to family and friends.