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When I was young, born in Canada, I knew this bad stuff would happen.

Even as a baby.

The darkest and most negative Funan people would die in North America regardless of whatever positive they do. Vietnamese will die unless they go back home. North American does not welcome them.

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So I did not listen to my parents and had mostly fun all day.

… with some learning.

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But eventually, I accomplished my dreams and more with ‘junction’ people.

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But what about the other people?

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You can not change natural frequency of the world.

There will be wars and hate.

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Then what happens?

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You eat your burger and fries and wait it out slowly while keeping busy for that hope. But overall life is crap and a demise sinking.

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But when you are done accomplished, you simply wallow away like me now.

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I got killed the other day and don’t want to do anything no more.

I have given up on life basically.

The North American experiment kills people like me. I have to go home to Vietnam for any possible life of my own now.

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Anyways, that is life. It probably happened to other Vietnamese or others.

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I should have been born before the New World was discovered in 1491.

I guess I was a bad person and got reincarnated in hell in 1984 in Canada.

I should have been a monk in 1391 and died and became some star in the Universe.

Now I am dead in Canada with no possible routes in North America.

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Anyways I studied what I wanted.

Got enough degrees … not really. Should have finished another degree.

With a very low body count, I think so positive and good and am always positive which is excellent. Relationships did not kill me or skew me badly thinking so personal. No attachments.

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I gave up my life for God and helping hospital patients in 2019 as a practical nurse.

If I do get killed, I might go to heaven as I did give up my life to God as a volunteer in 2019 at my local hospital where I was born at the Cancer Centre.

So life is good so far for heading to heaven.

Just waiting it out enjoying some pop and food.

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But people need everyone.

There is a need for diversity and people willing to think and do and contrast.

But a real Canadian killed me the other day and things did not turn out well with my relationships.

Now back to Vietnam and out of scene just living.

Maybe someone else will take up the cause.

But the heart is dead by a Canadian.

And the relationships was basically death.

That is fate. This had to happen because it was a failure from the beginning. I did not want to live in Canada since day 1 but my parents said just do.

The Bible said no invading Vietnam but to hell with the Bible???

I have a low relationship count, like to live and study before …

Now my heart is shattered and I stay home sad and lost.

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People don’t care.

That is what happens to people like me and with my background???

Fin.

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So people yearn to do better and well. They aspire to learn from people who succeeded in the past. They secretly want to succeed.

That is the draw of life. That is the goal of life.

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But the people who succeeded now are targeted if they don’t act a certain way in North America.

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The coloured ones must exactly 200% act like the racist caricatures drawn by the North Americans in the 1960’s if they succeed after or risk getting killed.

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So now what?

What was the point of the Vietnam War in 1955?

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According to unanimous decision I think back then, the war was not favourable but went ahead.

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I guess life is actually negative and doomed from the beginning for Vietnamese.

There is life and hope but that is just a something you hold onto when things are crashing down as now Vietnamese are getting messed up with in North America. They are targeting the last group now and it is horrible. Regardless of any movement or government action, the North American experiment craps on Vietnamese. The more Vietnamese succeed they more they get killed.

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There is fate … probably life and the demise of everything was foretold. I think in Biblical scriptures, it was said not to invade or target Funan people. But people do it anyways …

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If the darkest, negative Funan people (Vietnamese) are killed like this in North America … what will happen to the World?

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Who is responsible?

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Is the lust and love and hate for Funan that great Worldwide? Probably, yes.

It is the North American experiment with European settlers, First Peoples and turning into First Peoples and immigrants.

The theme is sex, drugs and rock and roll all night and day.

Who is saved? Who abstains to power through the agony and sin?

How racist is it? It is horrible. People kill!

But if you believe in God and think pure as a coloured person, you will still live and escape the circus one day.

Mixed friends

I had a mixed friend born in Canada in college who studied welding for 1 year to move to Australia for a better life. He did finish school and move to Australia.

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I once worked at a supermarket nights and a mixed guy told me he is opening his own contractor business as working supermarkets wasn’t really …

My Thing

I did my own thing after working supermarkets and because of the North American experiment, believing in God and not random DMing women and messing around got saved to live for myself and move back to SEA.

Life is not good for people with my look and background here regardless of how much you try. It gets worse and worse as you increase and because you are coloured.

In North America basically don’t bother trying to help as people killed me. But that is the thing, you succeed with your thing and now people kill minding your own buisness shopping at the dollar store … now I go back to Vietnam so I don’t get attacked 24/7/365 in Canada as a coloured person.

Why

Simply North America is about abstaining from sex, rock and roll and drugs if you are coloured really so you can concentrate on skills and making money for North America and yourself like my parents said … If you do it too early your brain rest on that first relationship with all it’s good and flaws I think.

When I had my first relationship in 2018 at 34, I learned life for me to survive was just to concentrate on yourself, studies and work. The world is bonkers in North America if you are not a Godly person. So this first broken relationship positioned me to study, study, study. That is looking at it positive.

Anyways I abstained a lot and also am the 3rd child middle child so I always worry about money and education and skills for a life. I had my first experience when I was late 20s like 28. I could have had relationships in younger years, but I waited for some reason …

But the big problem is that I went home to Vietnam when younger and there were a bunch of women that wanted me simply because I was 5’10 and OK looking for a SEA to them, had a CompTIA A+ at 14 and liked to work and learn. So what gives, I had a profession and like to work. Just do your passion regardless of where you live? Does race really matter? Should you be proud of your race and skin? When you have a passion that consumes you? Is that all life is? Is that good enough?

Anyways, abstaining from the culture of North America that is sex, drugs and rock and roll all day from an early age and finally at 37 making some software that helped North America is good. I helped install a popular operating system with a few body counts.

I did my part I think.

Aftermath

Then yesterday, the worst thing happened to save me. A Canadian threatened my life while shopping outside.

People in my life started doing bad stuff that hurt my 2nd emotional soul, my heart muscles memory.

I guess living and trying your best in Canada as a South East Asian even born in Canada will eventually kill you in the North America experiment.

I did my thing whatever it is and earned good stuff and helped North America and now I go back to Vietnam where things are same-same?

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So expect the best and worst in Canada as a Dalit Full South Vietnamese born in Canada.

It was a wild ride.

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Life is crazy here in North America.

You can get the skills and experiences to do the things you like or need. But when he people here threaten your life for just buying cheap soda and things stop making sense then you got to leave.

Born and growing up in Canada, I got treated less than a poop plastic prop. That is how it is.

Nothing makes sense no more.

My heart is completely broken and shattered.

Time to live only for myself now.

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To heck with the anything really now. This was the experience needed … as it is a part of growth for Vietnamese in this country.

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It is only up to you to believe and do well for yourself. So if you do the thing you want then … then after everything falls apart so now you got to prepare to live for yourself and yourself only in this crazy messed up world. Work and save money for yourself now as the the average Canadian has turned their back on you. They think you are worst than dog poop prop for even breathing. All the relationships you have growing up in Canada now don’t make any sense here. They grew you and now madness?

Maybe this happened to others people in the past who succeeded and now the world has turned on them just because.

But as a Vietnamese finally I see, nothing makes sense and everything is probably cycling and repeating good and bad. This has happened to other races too.

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So God saved me and now moving me back to Vietnam. Now I understand why there are countries still after 10,000 years. After you succeed and are now hated beyond a weed, you have a place to move back. RACISM will always exist! RACISM is in everyone!

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So now I make money. I can not find work except working with my parent business so yeah.

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Wild ride for a full South Vietnamese Dalit.

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Good thing God saved me as I don’t DM random women and don’t mess around. Nothing physical since 2018.

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So if you want the skills, experience and downloads/views to retire, believe in ‘God the Almighty’ and he will save you and your family back to home where things make sense. Your people back home should understand the dilemma as Vietnamese have returned back home in the past.

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God is above everyone else. Not even the bestest people have power over God.

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Also the girls that have more body count than you usually helps a guy with no real relationships here in Canada.

Then you realize they have no understanding how you feel as a full South Vietnamese Dalit. Like you work and work and work and hope the software and studying will be worth it to live comfortably away from society as their is full healthcare and full supports so you can live your own tale. Then maybe because they are mixed race they think their way or they found something better?

But the girl realizes the new something needs their previous man to learn from as he is a Dalit … awkward … Everyone learns from Dalit people at the end.

But ultimately God decides what happens to your heart. Right? As long as you believe in God and don’t mess around, God saves you and people avoid you as you don’t mess around.

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The end is that it is every man for himself. He helps his family understand that. I have to help my brother realize that it is up to him to save himself.

For my father, older brother and I who are Full South Vietnamese Dalits in this crazy world, we only have ourselves as it is too crazy.

We got to save every penny for retirement and tell our sons and daughters as a Dalit people we have smarts but the society treats us like worse than poop. So when you get education, experiences, work and relationships, make money to save yourself from death living on the streets.

People kill so watch out. Even if you are born in Canada, you aren’t even Canadian enough for the majority and they will scare the hell out of you to move back to where you came from. Even the girl you are seeing will kill you. Trust no one.

I think at the end it’s body count. People notice your believe in purity and you freely live. God notices.

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So I believe in learning and enjoying life. I like learning this and that.

Then get murdered on the streets of Canada.

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Back home to Vietnam.

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Thanks for the experiences. It is just a repeat and cycle like other races for the last 10,000 years since the last ice age. Back home.