Updates (June 22, 2026)

So the real deal is at 40s:

My brother and I because we are born in Oshawa, are ugly, fat looking Vietnamese-Canadians keeping up externally to live externally.

So is that worth it?

Live fat and ugly and trying to fulfill the external hole for Canada freedoms? Are we all international citizens?

Can’t we do that in Europe?

We are only fat and ugly because of … and that is not worth it.

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Good thing I did not spend money no more … I am out.

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Is Canada really multiculturalism? Is USA a melting pot?

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Is fulfilling external needs going 100% external good?

It is freaking thrilling to the max … yolo.

But is it worth it?

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My father who studies philosophy a lot says my software is just OK. My sister also says its OK. Lots of buttons WOWwee! BUT it doesn’t pay the bills. I don’t have money for retirement. Can not afford a family.

My father basically says run 400+ miles per hour with the tech bros in Seattle and California utilizing AI, new tech and all the new updates and make money like a FANG employee to prove my worth in tech???

He watches Vietnamese-‘American’ YouTube content daily and thinks his son should think like an American?

I am doing things I like and find funny … :/

But my father and mother and sisters are like to prove yourself as a real hardworking man streamline?????????????? work like the other 1.2 million tech bros in Silicon Valley in FANG because that is real work??? Make that 200K USD plus bonuses a year. Real hard cash.

But I like my life … ughhhh …

I am paid for … am I?

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There is no job position for the work I am doing with the team.

Maintenance work on Microsoft Windows Updates that could be faulty and break because we are all human.

The software we do is not guaranteed. This job is horrible. Would not recommend for any person on the planet regardless of anything.

The amount of problems is tremendous. No company would open a position like this.

What we are doing is sacrificing our lives and sanity all the time to make a product that is so easy for the user to customize Windows when there could be countless problems as no one actually double checks all 150 functions at each release??? It is dizzying just thinking about this.

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Dmitry Nefedov and Dmitry Demin started this and updates this regularly the most. That is incredible.

Yes there could be errors and things could be missing … but a project this big is a no-no in real company culture.

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But this work is crazy.

I guess I stop now.

Thanks for the support and help people.

Yes, I got help and earned something but my physical and mental health is gone.

Time to work in medicine for that always learning balanced life.

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If I don’t do medicine I won’t have a family.

But this gig I have been doing that has this good stuff is bad overall and impossible in the long run. It will kill me and won’t enable me to have a family which is the meaning of life.

People are pushing me to keep doing this which is only helping them. They mine me and my workflow which kills me at the end. I realized this after typing all of this. That is why no one does debloating stuff for more than 1 year realizing it is too complex and is a good source for AI to mine.

People with East origins were trying to tempt me to code all day reading my unique coding maybe? No more sorry. They put on this act like they are in need …

So I value family and ice cream and bye. It was a wild ride.

I will learn practical nursing or work cooking.

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So I do all this unique coding for myself and go out for a walk then some people have the nerve to say. BRO! You are on my land who benefited from 1000s of years of Western experience and education! Give some respect! While my heart is tired from 7 years of continious refactoring … Ok ok.

Then some kids who are now 16 years old have the nerve to do, “Yo! look at me, look how smart and developed more I am overall than you after learning from your antics. Respect me and respect that I exist for you to exist? and do the things you do. Without me, they is no you. Respect me to the highest kingly order! Use up all your energy 120% to understand me and my power!

OK! ok! I guess I won’t ever program again.

So these kids come from countries where it is alright and there are caste systems where you have authority over the dalits. They come to Canada and maybe born here and they become so pro-American that they show I am he who walks the Earth as I come from two origins. There ego is so big that only their parents can feed them.

Ok! ok!.

But aren’t they suppose to be middle people? Weren’t they suppose to cycle back in Asia as that doesn’t work in America really as that screws up things? Like become Zen people to be relaxed and malleable and workable with everyone. Like mix with South East Asians to have the work ethic and intelligence to work with the majority?

No, not enough room and no time. Come to America to do your thing. They don’t want to mix as they think they are as pure as snow.