Updates (June 10, 2026) Part 7
So life got worse.
With my number of relationships in the past, God and just living, life got worse as I improved. God let me know.
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If your people are used as a scapegoat in society … I don’t think there is a reason to stay. Math 101 always go back to zero the scapegoat.
I improved more and did more and still get treated bad. I am like the worst person in the world to ‘study’???
Therefore, Kyle Le and the other Vietnamese bros are right … go back to Vietnam if your people are targeted.
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Time to go back home and work something.
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So I did education …
My father says its garbage to do education and you should be a philosopher (live somewhere in the mind) and let society treat you like a world traveler to not get hurt or maimed.
My older sister says education is garbage, be a sales associate and save for retirement and not date or have relationships because life is about ‘sales’ ???
My mother stays at home with her grade 12 education not wanting to go back to school for French studies or pharmacology or engineering.
My older brother stays home with his cultured mind and grade 12 education thinking his old ways to fight and create. It kind of works but he needs engineering to build basic software to sell. Go high or go home.
My younger sister … Not sure what the business is with her. She did Western Social Work studies … but isn’t life about engineering new mechanical and software solutions to build spaceships to find water and resources?
Anyways I did education like my grandfather said and told me to do on my mother side when I met him in grade 6 in 1995.
Ok I am done. Got some stuff.
Parents and siblings complain I have to be a doctor and astronaut and electrical engineer to bring big $$$ bucks in and knowledge as I don’t know that life is about making money first. Money first and always in a First World country? My parents and siblings just love money and money and money?
OK … I have my name in some big publications having fun coding away for the last decade and now my old siblings are getting older complaining more and more that life is about retiring and relaxing and having exposure to real life outside and having money. Forget textbook and theoretical learning they say. Life is about burgers and playing at old age with money they say now.
I tried to balance and did education for the family and my brother says engineering is whatever because he never went back home to Vietnam to get culturally scolded by cousins who are architects and in medicine. But deep down he thinks he needs to be a PhD and MD to go home or else he will lose face. So he doesn’t bother going home as he lost face already and gives up and does his thing online hoping to get donations.
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So as a 3rd middle child I tried to balance the family getting all this education and experience and at the end it is not about having a relationship and family and children but about work exposure and money to retire now? I am over the hill? Time to retire and die?
Don’t you save $1000 a month and invest it in some S&P stock for 30 – 40+ years and then you got retirement money?
Do you really need to work all those years and get treated as a scapegoat wherever you go?
Or study and create with your friend Ben Cybulski and Dmitry Nefedov who provide you a life line in education and development?
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Who is giving me a life line for positivity and growth?
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To change your mind to accept education and growth and living in levels and transcending requires you to love yourself, love your time, respect yourself and respect your pace and do your passion.
Eventually you will met a similar person half way across the world that respect your ways of life.
It is not local and it is not tied to your country’s economy or position in the world.
Your unique passion is shared elsewhere in the world and it is not local usually.
That is what can drive people to do great things if you find a symbiotic working relationship with people across the world.
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So I went and did education for my family and my siblings and parents say it is still not enough.
I guess that is what happens when you try to balance the family.
Also there is not enough hours in the day. But there is. ..
If your parents and siblings did do education they would be more happy than just working and trying to buy that bread and ice cold pop. Education requires you to be patient and forthcoming in your abilities and wants and needs.
Education requires you to step back and think and relax and open.
If you work all the time in some 9 – 5 job you will have a short understanding of how professors and librarians think in the world and live.
9 – 5 is life but it is about working 20 – 30 – 40+ years and dying 3 years into retirement.
Focusing on pure education and working on a specialized team will make you happy and extend.