Updates (June 30, 2024)

Work: Web development is OK but … – Is it objective and subjective. How subjective is it? I feel stuck in it. It is making me feel negative as things are clearly defined and bounded I think. Can you really express yourself and feel free working it? Or is what I like personally doing, more worth it? More in numbers or more in doing what I like, makes me feel better? I guess I need to do it to pay the bills and make money. My passions don’t make money really and my passions are too much work.

Life: Everyone is different and has something to add or say – Young people may have something to say and add but generally it is their growing pains and current thinking that could be negative. Anyways, I should just be working on myself and studying and growing as that is all I have and all I can do. I should be happy with what I have.

Work: It is about your actions and output – At the end of the day to express yourself is to create stuff. Your actions speak.

Life: After socializing so much after finishing stuff, all I want to do is be alone doing my own thing – I heard when you are growing doing work you get tired of people. But after that period of disliking people you learn to love people and life again. I am at the stage where I am working doing a job that isn’t that “isn’t me”. I have to trudge through it. Take it step-by-step and get lost in it. I am thinking it will give me something like money, the love of learning difficult things and learn things I don’t like and make me get to the next level in life.

Life: I got to think about me first and take it step-by-step – Life doing web development is something I don’t really like. I heard doing something you don’t like will allow you to get through life and grow. You get past doing the things you only like and grow in many ways and many levels. But I do really think if I keep with my passions I will specialize and feel content. I wonder if I keep doing web development if it will grow me and let me see things differently? Let see how this takes me through life. I really think doing my passions is the key though. That way I get really, really specialized and learn new things and have some unique thinking. But lets see what web development does to me. At the end I think it is what your passions do to you and make you special? Anyways for now keep exploring and growing I guess.

Life: I am old – I can not really expect people to understand my current situation. I am growing and do new things. Doing skilled work changes you. Possibly people doing general work don’t understand until they get doing this type of work.

Life: Get in the zone and be yourself without the negativity of people – All you can do in this life is keep in your zone I think. No one will understand you really and your motivations. I guess that is life.

Life: Everything is good when you are just doing your passions – That is all I see now. Working and growing up doing this and that grows you but your passions make you tick and feel good. General life and society means nothing much really. It is your passions here in Canada that sets you alive and free.

Life: Ben and Al says life is just work maybe – At the end, we are trying to get work done I guess??? I need to work to buy my freedom.

Life: Being old – Being 40 changes you. No one understands and you can’t teach them unless they are old as you. Different motivations as you are old now. Thinking about retiring and having enough money to do what you like?

Life: I think doing your passions will drive you there too – Being unique and having something to offer that is creative and different will be the real ultimate goal instead of just being generalized or providing general solutions. It is what you thrive for and thrive for the unknown.

Life: It is education and growing at the end – Just keep learning and growing and doing stuff. Keep working. Keep trudging through.