Updates (June 19, 2024)

Work: It is all or nothing – After trying out working, I realize the following. Because I am doing a thinking job, it is all or nothing. You aren’t playing no more and thinking of giving up to do plan B jobs. You got to commit and you have to be strong now. All you have left is strength now. It is all hard work now. That is the only thing there is. This is the realization after socializing and playing out in public. Got to be “serious”.

Life: Life is doing something you can not really do – Doing something different and apart from you is the meaning??? Everything on earth is mostly meaningless in value and in growth. It is like you are fighting over limited resources when squabbling and socializing normally. You can talk and socialize but what makes life special and meaningful is doing something different and really apart from you. Lots of things to talk about and grow from and be happy about when things are so apart and different from you. That is mature and that is mature growth. Your sanctuary is at “home” doing something different.

Life: Living in Canada which allows you to have everything – What do you do now after realizing you actually have “everything” you ever wanted living here in Canada? When I was younger, I thought life was a struggle in Canada and planned to do Plan B jobs. I thought education and skills was too hard to obtain. It literally took me 40 years to realize it does take a long time to achieve the education and skills necessary to be independent. The goal is to at least get an engineering degree to learn how to build things. At the end of the day, I needed to socialize with my Vietnamese-Canadian peers to see and grow and share. I saw what they were doing and shared my wisdom from my angle. Then we all grew from there helping each other. At my old age, I learned to understand and work with what is around me and in front of me to devise of a solution that may be different. It was all from the Vietnamese angle at the end. When there is interplay with other cultures things are mushed up. There is racism and stereotyping that does nothing for me at the end if I let it. I can not grow and think while in this interplay when played in no growth way. I understand it and interact with it but at the end of the day it is all negative and disables you??? I can learn from this interplay and show my perspective but there are barriers sometimes that stop your growth and you must learn to work around it and show something different??? from this interplay. Some people won’t allow this learning and growing though … At the end of the day, you have your vision and no one will understand it from your heart.