Updates (Aug 7, 2026) Part 6

I was so nice and happy before I had my first physical relationship. I would wonder and wonder about the world and study. But when with women I could not think about anything but the dirty all day.

After I did the first dirty, my mind calmed down.

After the dirty, I was deemed a 2nd Generation Vietnamese/still a coloured person who was technical according to the world. A nobody really and had so few skills that made me unnoticed.

When I did the second dirty, I went crazy sad. Before the second dirty, I was constantly thinking about women and work and trying to do my best. I lived more for social values but I was always thinking dirty and wanted to play around before my second dirty.

When I got into a brief relationship and actually got married then divorced I realized everything is up to God and nothing really makes sense. At the end you have to learn and love yourself first in the modern world in Canada as you know what makes you tick and have to deal with people in your local city. Good passionate work and eating well and enjoying yourself is what matters??? I did that for 2 – 3 years and then got the software out that cemented me.

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The relationship I have now is just keeping busy and working to build skill and hold your health up by learning more and working. Nothing that really special. Relationships from the beginning should have been this way. Work and work to live together in the modern world to experience everything as we are born in Canada and are mature since grade 2.

Then you realize it is all about sticking together in the miserable world because you understand and live a realistic life.

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But you got to have a relationship that has the 1950’s traditional values and that is all. God will decide what woman comes into your life.

If a woman plays modern life and has a high body count, usually she expect other things than a quiet dinner at home and raising children.

But we live in a world that is fully supported here and there, the goal is to keep the relationship intact for children, education and values.

If the woman is on TikTok doing this and that then …

My mom raised me to think and think and now I got like 3 academic degrees, diplomas and certificates and lots of downloads based on thinking.