Dynamics of Survival

I have no choice but to work this hard.

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I have spent the last few years preparing for farag2 to update his script.

I reserve in my mind and body, energy and open headed segment to try to code the new features.

So basically I am on edge every single minute of the day.

I have no life.

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But it affords me the pleasure of being the guy that develops the Wrapper for millions and getting known as the guy that does it in the modern world.

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Is the trade off worth it?

I am waiting for an update.

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The recognition of doing this and having basically ‘no life’ is it.

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Basically, I get 100% no rejection in society where ever I go I think. Well so far …

People look at me and say wow this guy dedicated his life to work a lot. But I am Canadian and experiment and have time. So it is just circumstance too!

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But, I don’t know how much less effort I can afford.

The feature add on could take 2 hours to 3 days or more or … maybe even never.

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There is still work to be done. I rely on farag2 to do the updates on his end and I just do the Wrapper portion. But this is team work. But I need to do more.

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Again everything is 50 : 50 when you are old.