Updates (Mar 9, 2026)

Topics today

1. Was it right to rise up? I had one last pass in my early 30s. I had to go all out. My same age peer group from high school and original university class got married and had teenage children by now and nothing mattered no more as you have to raise nice children to function in society. I was on my own now in 2017. I did not get any help really because I was used mostly as the shoe rag and scapegoat because I was Vietnamese (racism exists and I am the bottom rung). Also I did not follow my passions at the beginning. And also I did not study at Trent University in Peterborough to get help from nicer Canadians who would feel sorry for me.
2. Was it right to try to do stuff? The Vietnamese from Vietnam pushed me to do my dreams here locally in Oshawa …
3. What was the result? It was open minded independent thinking with logical engineering basis that could create change and new fusion products. This is through doing your thing and networking worldwide as an middle-aged adult leveraging location which is harmful to ordinary life.
4. What are the problems? Location caused problems. When we are young here in Canada, if you wanted to code and do cool stuff you got to move to California or Seattle to do your thing otherwise you are unbalanced in the world.
5. What do you do now? It was nice to go full throttle but to do more you got to basically move to Britain or more East in Canada??? I thought if you wanted to do tech you move to California? Now everything is messed up. I was supposed to become a pharmacist so I could hide away behind a counter and interact the least with a patient as I am a full South Vietnamese who is dark and a negative void not connected with the local community naturally. Just sell drugs and watch for chemical conflicts. But I did not study at Trent University so I failed big time. Nicer helpful Canadians would have saved my ass in Peterborough. Just live like the other thousands of healthcare workers in the country and go home and eat soup with some sourdough bread.
6. Fix up? I guess I got to study in Peterborough now to secure a healthcare diploma/degree. I need helpful Canadians to direct me into a fulfilling normal life in healthcare. No more leveraging Oshawa location (GM country) to do previous work that connected me worldwide and gave me so much.

I forgot living in Oshawa allowed me to sprint.

That is why most families put their children in healthcare work so things are balanced.

Healthcare work is 99% OK and fulfilling.

That 1% more is possibly greed and power and no time for yourself to live normal enjoying ice cream after eating a normal chicken and potato roast with your wife and children.

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I worked as a pharmacist technician/assistant in 2006 … I basically chased independence since 2006-7.

I saw a cool musician while working in pharmacy in 2007. He was getting some pills and I said YOLO!

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Time to go back to living normal.

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What else are you supposed to do living and being born in a First World country?

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Again everything is 50 : 50.

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If I did not strive using my leverage then things would not turn out better for us. Other people use their leverage too and not work in healthcare.

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Because I am Vietnamese and full South, I am constantly busy to be positive and forward.

It is simple like that. Racism in Canada and North Americas expect Vietnamese to be the weed grower and drug dealer like back in the 1980s – 1990s.

That hasn’t really changed.

It is because we are the scapegoat and in last position in Eurasia mainland continent.

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That stereotype and position kills any positivity of having a relationship and having a family in the West.

Possibly in Europe it is different.

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Now you realize why I have not had a real relationship here in Canada. The negative perceptions of being Vietnamese in Canada made me feel so flat and deflated I forgo dating for decades. Remember I am full South Vietnamese. I am not mixed.

Even in university days back in 2000’s after chilling, the race that is seen more powerful at the current moment treats me like a dog back in Scarborough as I am from Durham. Scarborough is full of racism as that is the way it is.

So basically I messed up by not travelling 3 hours each way to Trent University back in 2000s to study what I wanted to give me leverage and external value.

I could have studied in Durham College or UOIT. But UOIT back then was new and not fully staffed.

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Some people from the East like Montreal travel all the way to Ontario to study to have freedom and experimentation and fun.

It works for some people.

I travelled from Ajax to Scarborough.

I should have went to Durham College for a 3 year diploma and waited till UOIT was full staffed.

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But now I live further East from Durham College so now I got to travel to Trent.

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But what really happened?

Is leveraging location good or bad?

Teachers at the Scarborough colleges and university have staff from Whitby.

Most people after finishing a degree move to easier towns and cities to live. Move from East to West to have balanced lives of playtime and work.

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But my family is opposite because we are full South Vietnamese.

We moved from Ajax to Oshawa and work all the time.

We spent 25 years in Ajax and moved to Oshawa in 2008 and it is now 18 years here. We are not half Oshawian yet.

But that is the problem.

If we did not move to Oshawa we would not get work or education.

When I was living in Ajax I was most of the time day dreaming of life.

People hired based on race and looks and need in Ajax.

In Oshawa it was go-go-go. I got ‘hurt’ working here in Oshawa. I basically lost my mind working here.

I was judge based more on my willingness to work.

And after 18 years in Oshawa, I did some stuff with Ben Cybulski and the team.

I used the leverage of just work to change stuff.

So is life about racism and following 200 year old stereotypes from the 1800s?

Or is life about leveraging location to change stereotypes for your people who are seen at the bottom rung?

For sure it is about survival but also fun. The more you go East it is about abstract world community driving and fun enjoyment together.

I know of other coloured people living out in the Atlantic provinces pursing advanced degrees and research leveraging location.

So do you leverage your location till the end?

When is enough?

Do you like the 1800s negative stereotypes?

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Working in a superstore/supermarket … what it does to you … as a 2nd generation Vietnamese born in Canada

1. The whole point of working nights part time for 36/36.5 hours a week for 5 years with no real benefits is to teach you how the real world works. You are the middleman providing the necessities to life. Baby formula, diapers, sweet potatoes, milk, bread and butter and clothing. You strive to work harder and harder everyday to increase productivity, efficiency, collaboration and understand consumers. With that information you improve products and services and tighten the belt.
2. There are cultures and people out there practicing their culture while you are slaving away trying to save that 1 cent for your store to provide food for your community, province, country and contenient.
3. Your country provides the supports, services, infrastructure, education, wide range of this and that.
4. Are people stupid? No. Some cultures say more and different perspectives are worth tapping into for education, enrichment, study and innovation.
5. Your country is in a deficit and probably will never pay it back.
6. What experiment are we in?
7. Just accept whatever it is. Accept everything. Follow the money trail and eat whatever tastes good to you at the moment?
8. Think present with what you know. Don’t overthink???
9. Processed food is it good or bad? Or having a good time is all that matters? Some edutainment?
10. I got hurt so bad working nights in the produce department that I went this way really at age 33??? As a full South Vietnamese man born in Canada … I went YOLO.