The problems of being a ‘tangent’ coder
My parents were getting old in their 70s. Past the half mark of 70s … closing in on 80s.
My siblings suffer from TikTok/Instagram/YouTube overload asking them to look and act young 18 in a 40 year old broken body. The Western media keeps pushing gangsta rapping, fast fooding, crying and loving like young lovers in high school and college. My siblings love it up. Makes them feel relevant, makes them feel included, makes them feel young, makes them some merit as they produce the same content back into the media pool. The vortex, the circle.
I go dark.
I code.
I code in the margins.
I code for the ‘Old World’ …
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I talk to people from the ‘Old World’. I work for people in the ‘Old World’. I live in the ‘Old World’. I have contacts in Britain, France, Germany, Poland, Ukraine and Russia …
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Parents and siblings and neighbours say the latest American pop music and the additives they put in American ketchup is life in North America New World. Life is music and burgers and cheap hot dogs.
I live and work in the Old World from my perch.
New World are outside and in public. They test me and push my buttons. They somehow don’t understand what the ‘Old World’ brings to the table. Seems like the neighbor’s are stuck and have become uncultured as generations come and come.
What is life?
Work in the ‘Old World’.
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8 months ago … I went on a 2 mile tangent in to the ZEN and the unknown. Made blueprint designs of new software ideas …
Stopped to enjoy tons of commercial burgers from restaurants and frozen section and a lard fry by the chip truck nearby …
That 2 mile tangent in to the unknown scared me and unearthed me.
I am detached from society from going on that 2 mile tangent into the unknown 8 months back. Nothing makes sense. Family, friends and neighbours don’t make any sense.
Even 5-years old neighbours try to probe me and all they do is … irritate me as they never had a girlfriend yet telling them how cool their fresh hair cut is ??? A girlfriend is bliss alight!?!? Get a fucken girlfriend and stop acting like life has meaning. Life is about going to Indian buffets, Chinese Buffets and Fusion International Buffets and eating too much and sleeping after because of food overdoses. Food comas.
The girl that says your fresh hair cut is on the hook will give you pleasure and satisfaction forever. At least 30 years until you find a real wife.
Is this life of a Dalit?
What is life of a Dalit of the Dalits?
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Currently drinking coffee and eating vegetarian to stop slipping away into Zen and the unknown.
Need more of the unknown? Yes, kinda.