In 2023 …

In 2023, I finally finished my second paper.

I went to North York Yonge Street to celebrate.

I fixed my iPhone battery and went to eat at a Pizza joint for tasty authentic Silicy European slice.

I got a good slice with nice pop.

After I finished writing my article.

I traveled around looking to buy some Asian snacks for mum.

Encountered the Chinese/Korean immigrants living and working at their grocery stores.

Here I am a 39 years old Vietnamese-Canadian stunted because of ABC and XYZ shopping in a gated Asian town where ethnic people flourish.

I could not speak well to the Asians on Yonge Street and felt stupid.

I bought the pastries and left.

Then an older lady followed me to my bus stop.

So immigrant East Asians living a free life on Yonge Street want to meet a Vietnamese-Canadian who was stunted for 20 years in the system who finally broke free and created software that supports his entire well being and family?

So I lose a lot and gain a lot of free time?

So 20 years hollow inside and with pretty great accomplishments at the finish line … but 20 years after 20 years empty?

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So full South Vietnamese that can work with White Westerners after school are located in East Durham Region study silently and are treated secondary for their entire lives … then get older and do some stuff to compensate for the emptiness?

I guess that is the trade off.

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What are my parents doing at 46 years in this country?

So my mom acts like a child in front of her children not wanting to study engineering or pharmacy. She says she suffers in the West with free health care, Old Age pension and living in a nice house in Oshawa North with access to a van.

She keeps her children’s mindset scared at 16 years old to study when they are in there 40s.

What is she doing keeping her kids scared of growing up and studying and making videos and software.

Basically she is saying, as a Vietnamese that was bombed for 20 years and colonized by the French, you better study like you are in high school till you die or you die of embarrassment working in Canada because Canada and North America/World are externally validated worlds. It is better studying till you die because you can outwit everyone and reverse the stereotypes if you do as other Vietnamese will mention the Nghiep and Can Nguyen family in passing to screw with all the races and gain their respect like now.

The family unit is unbreakable so you can live as a family growing.

But when to break free? Especially in North America where this is abnormal.

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Probably all the homelessness in Canada and North America that are Vietnamese is because the Vietnamese guy was treated secondary in his life and could not uphold himself as he had no examples of Vietnamese doing extraordinary things. Who is driving that?

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So David’s mother knows the secret to raising her kids with high output.

Ok but they are in their 40s now.

But this is a special case. Vietnam War people. Now what?

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It is the crazy dynamic of being and becoming more First Peoples that creates this arch.

The fight and hate and racism, creates the products and services we offer.

But at old age, we become First Peoples, the children and we have to move back or succumb to living in the forests.

But the problem is that they were First Peoples in the beginning and pretending to harness their Vietnamese roots to study and work.