Personality

Scared of people while I am trying to work, learn and being positive. People scare me as a seen the danger of sinning.

Like normally people always attack me being so happy and positive my natural birthed way.

But when I got my 3rd body count, you have to be weary as people are lose rockets. Sinning 3 times made you see the majority of society. Sinning 3 times is probably like having sex regularly with random people. And those people are crazy people and you just talk in a way to avoid confrontation and brawls and see things their way as they had it rough and still have it rough. When you lost the innocence life is pretty much off.

When I had just 1 body count, I was so careful and nice and moral avoiding the slightest confrontations deeming people bad people if I saw they were laxed and willing and unwilling. You notice people are trouble.

But I also so stupid wondering about sex all day and trying to fight the sexual urges with a lower body count than 3. I could not study and could not learn beyond my university years. I was even frustrated during college.

Now with a body count of 3 since 2018, I am basically average??? but in good spirits. I work and work and work with Tammy Nguyen and we got this setup going on.

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So this is Canada. I sinned 3 times and got this.

No one cares, but I care for myself.

Thank you God and Buddha.

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After a body count of 3, I did not trust women no more for life and marriage.

The less body count have, you see women who have multiple relationships in the past as untrustworthy and they expect a lot and a certain level. They literally snap and are even racist when you talk too much as you don’t know life. The woman and man in general say life is go-go roller coaster of sex, work and fun and sadness. If the relationship doesn’t work out, it didn’t work out and onto the next. Choo – choooo!

Experienced women expect a ring, a house, 2 cars and a retirement plan the very second when you never touched those topics before … as the woman is getting old …

Sometimes the women has had so many relationships she finally settles/picks you, but you are dumb with only three relationships, but you got a job and a nice life.

So what gives?

Then you realize you just work on your hobbies for the next 3 years and a women you like naturally will email/message you back with a similar body count because you can see she isn’t tied down in her actions and words.

It is natural and unprovoked and even racist?

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So the deal is this …

You are a player or a worker.

Playing is miserable after a while (you got to do something instead of talking gibberish and nothing new and acting WTF), while working is a mountain no one has climbed.