When I was young I felt I belonged in the USA

I watched a lot of TV growing up.

When I saw videos about the South (Appalachian) I felt close to it.

So I am guessing since 1491 to now (Columbus+) ships brought people back to Eurasia from the New World to impress the Mekong Delta people as people like bamboo that grows forever.

When I see white people I feel OK. Ever since I was young I felt OK with white people.

But I look like a Chinese man but now a mixed Mexican after getting old.

Cool American dynamic.

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So there are immigrants here and there. South, East and others that bother me in public.

My dad says ignore everyone and live.

OK.

But if I ignore some groups they really get irate because they know who I am from my online work …

I guess you should acknowledge people.

But if I do that all day, I feel mixed and keep flipping to avoid confrontation and harm.

So that means I must stay at home and avoid people outside as outside as that range and space where things are just that.

At home along you can think freer without any constraints and that is the key to learning more and expanding your range instead of the public range.

That is the secret to being knowledgeable and smart is to figure a way to isolate and think for yourself independently with the majority crowd defining who you are as a person. Keep out from the crowd.

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That is the funny thing … when going outside as a coloured person, people tell me hot to think and behave and I end up getting stressed and tired changing to their demands to avoid confrontation.

That is all I do all day. Change to meet people’s expectations.

I got to stop and do what I want.