Inauthentic Selves?
My mom pushed to live in Oshawa in 2008 in an area that works all the time.
No time to talk and unwind.
From Ajax.
I have questions.
So pushing and pushing on the Oshawa clock I got down to my core over the years.
What is my authentic self here in Oshawa, Canada, Vietnam, Nova Scotia and USA?
In Oshawa I just like hanging around downtown Oshawa eating cheap fast foods looking around the scenery and ultimately going home into my parents house and going on the computers.
I have been doing that for many years and uncovered:
- I am Siberian mainly. I look at the landscapes and the people of Siberia and say. Wow I have been there and I like it. I like the desolation and endless landscapes. I like the cold, fish they eat.
I guess all Asian people came from there after changing to look Siberian went back down to enjoy the catfish.
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But I got old now and don’t care.
I spend time sleeping and eating in the cold.
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My father a wise working man … Told me that life is about you and you don’t care about this or that as you life and grow old for you as that is what happens.
You need to grow for life. You need to grow for you. Then you can help others. But you need to be well first.
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Yesterday, a 18 year old big tall South Asian born in Canada guy and his girl ‘person’ was waiting for me at Shopper’s Drug Mart with his immigrant parents around to compare and communicate with me.
I am old and dying now at 42 years old and practically given up on working hard like last year. Yes, bring young people around to test me at 11PM at late night drugs store so they can learn.
Yes, you need to see ‘the guy’ face-to-face.
Yes you need your sons and daughters to learn in this harsh world what to do to survive.
I did not bring my iPhone so I could see you guys running up and down the aisles waiting for me to analyze me. I notice more when I don’t bring my GPS phone.
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2nd generation immigrant children have it so hard. Keep it up … keep it up forever …
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