Updates (Mar 12, 2026)

So after … I am just doing my thing.

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Location changed everything …

Then you realize it is good to have a stable routine job that is local to have a family.

That is all it is at this point.

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So that means I go back to Vietnam and teach Maths and English locally in my hometown.

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Life went weird … but the biggest issue was that what happening in North America was causing this problem.

I am turning into First Peoples and other people in North America are changing too.

People are moving here and there to survive and make a life.

But ultimately people are becoming First Peoples and don’t want to deal with anyone or problems.

That is the thing.

As you grow older and older and done your stuff, we are moving back to Mother Nature …

You don’t listen to no one, you do your thing, you also attack people telling them what to do and how to feel as a First Peoples.

That means you got to move back to Vietnam as you are stepping in people personal spaces.

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You see how odd this is? As a North American, I say what I want to think and relieve stress.

What does that do? It opens avenues of thinking and work and better health.

The more I act and do and say, I get things done to better myself.

But the problem is that I am turning into nature … I am loving Mother Nature.

How long can I keep this up?

Beyond people and relationships … The more I work and work and do and do, I am becoming faster into First Peoples and lose the drive for relationships and understanding from Vietnamese people regardless of their status either immigration or 2nd generation.

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It gets to the point where you do study First People studies and live like First Peoples after getting worked so hard and stressed out.

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I feel I am working hard.

Did I work hard?

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Then you see immigrants and 2nd generation criticizing you as you change quickly to First Peoples.

It is crazy.

The people you worked with for years who may be also Vietnamese become polar opposites to you. They criticize why you aren’t acting “Vietnamese” and working as a team like before and why aren’t we siding with us or working more and with us … but you worked for 41 years non stop changing quickly to love Mother Nature while here?

That means it is terrible if you want to stay Vietnamese.

You can not go together. One person is criticizing standing around just observing while the other is half gone to become First Peoples.

That was the who dilemma all along here in North America.

This created the works and accomplishments.

The dynamic of a 2nd generation Vietnamese born in Canada who is working hard externally then becomes First Peoples created the accomplishments who was trying to find common ground with Vietnamese and the World while trying to date a woman who has a similar background.

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I have networked to the Old World. I have friends all over. From Mexico to Russia.

They give me their perspective which I enjoy to listen and learn from and work with.

But then you turn to First Peoples wanting to drink pristine river water from a mountain and pine bark tea.

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Is there really a next step?

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Time to go back to Vietnam and sell off everything I own as parents don’t understand and supposedly friends take their own way.

You got to live for yourself.

Especially if you are changing like you are in North America.

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Basically, I worked non-stop since 2007 yoloing. Stressed too much and changed to become First Peoples. Now semi-retired and want to drink pine bark tea all day as lookout into the lake and rivers and forests.

I knew no immigrant girl from Vietnam would date me unless I was accomplished.

Even if I had a CompTIA A+ no Vietnamese immigrant women would date me. 2nd gen Vietnamese are so mixed that nothing makes sense to me when I date them. I am supposed to marry an immigrant really to get that immigrant “fire” of hard work and striving unlike 2nd gen who have options to get loans and get supports.

That is an odd thing about the frequency here in Canada. Even if you make a lot of money and choose the encyclopedia life of knowing a lot, Vietnamese women from Vietnam want more.

But getting more is trouble hehehe. The women looking for more are they really mature and happy?

Was life so externally valued in North America that are they running forever? Yes.

But there are some men working stable routine jobs happy because becoming an encyclopedia is good and money is stable. You are 99% good just like healthcare jobs doing technician work.

So basically people who don’t choose healthcare and technician work are unhappy and searching for the rest of their lives for more and more and more until they are …

And that is why healthcare workers are chubby and kind of @!@&&^#$ to people.

So you choose whichever route …

Anyways I am so stressed and First Peoples now that I am going to sell everything and move back to Vietnam to become Vietnamese again.

I thank Ben Cybulski for helping me run from the 9 – 5 here in Canada and try to code.

We created cool stuff and will be recognized for it for years to come.

Thank you Canada for supporting me.

Now I go back to Vietnam and drink some iced tea.

The hard working aunties selling food and drinks near An Giang University will welcome me back in Vietnam.

From 2016 – 2026 I accomplished the American dream.

Now I retire teaching in Vietnam and start a family in Vietnam and hopefully restart the cycle one day with my immigrant children wanting a North American life maybe.

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Scary thing about Vietnamese women from Vietnam while in Vietnam …

Some expect you to know all the books at your city library.

When I went back to Vietnam in 2006, I tried dating and met women who wanted to run away to the States and expected their husband to be #1.

Then I realized those women do exists but reality they are too forward. They show what they want too much when you are different from what they expected or different from Vietnamese in Vietnam.

Everyone really wants a lot.

But as a Canadian, you aren’t supposed to think that way.

So it is going to be hard to come back to Vietnam while 99.9999999% of women expect their man to be a genius.

But that is the tenacity of women from Vietnam.

They expect a lot.

but the rhythm here in Canada where I was born into created my accomplishments.

So with being accomplished what happens?

Dissatisfaction? Misunderstanding?

The frequency of Canada and the frequency of Vietnam somehow mixed up and created stuff.

Now we got stuff. What do we do?

Let’s go to Vietnam and see.

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Shit … I realized this.

Vietnamese “Vietnamese” women from An Giang who are like 28+ will just get along with me.

I forgot that in 2015 LOL.

They work and are understanding of life entirely and just get along to have children and family.

They work for their children.

They hope their children have at least some degree and passion.

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But if the Vietnamese women are here in Canada run! No point. They want more and more until they are depressed.

I seriously have never seen a happy Vietnamese women here in Canada.

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The women I am meeting want cake and more cake. So it is pointless.

Get a Vietnamese women from An Giang in Vietnam and done.

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The last 10 years was a journey but was it really worth it to be 42 with no kids?

The women bothering me want the sun and stars.

Time to call it quits.

Selling everything and moving back to An Giang with a mature women there who just wants their child to be able to hold on and be independent.

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Women before 29 years old expect the world and some.

I think it has to do with age now finally (experience).

When I went home to Vietnam in 2015 I was met with women who wanted to marry.

But back then I did not finish computers.

Now 10 years later I did but the women I worked with are still wanting and controlling and are out of this world in wants and needs.

There is a place in the mind where enough is enough. Like you can expect the world and more but don’t make it full frontal and always the topic. You talk and think about it but talk about normal life as normal life will become everything in time. That takes experience and knowing life.

So I was working with women who think so forward and present that they just experience growth without living a normal life.

My fault to be honest.

I had a lot of accomplishments being a CompTIA A+ and worked with Ben and my team.

But life went to forward and I became so old and tired that no one understands me no more.

Time to take it back to Vietnam and teach a bit and work a bit and have a family like my parents.

Living here with my accomplishments is too much.

It is confusing and will not work. People expect stuff from me which is crazy since I am already accomplished.

Why would you expect more when more is bad and unbalanced according to the universe?

I got my accomplishments in Oshawa. Isn’t that good enough?

Anyways I need to look out for my mental wellbeing and my personal space.

Moving away from Canada as I am becoming First Peoples.

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