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You have to learn and learn and learn …
Most people when born in the West have fun and do fun creative stuff maybe. It turns out pretty good but that is fun feeling and not all growth and building really. Some groups, some people and persons have positive growth while doing this …
When I became specialized, life was good. I built myself up with logic and math. With logical reasoning I could sort through culture, race and emotional impulses.
That is the trick no one wants you to figure out unless you are family or from the same group sometimes …
The solution is to do what you love and hopefully it builds you math skills and reasoning.
Usually pursuing your passions and hobbies will build you up but some passions may be just slightly positive or bad that it is negative downwards.
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Negativity: I was told to just work and live life by many people. These people are not on my side or for my genuine interests …
I knew something was up when people did not want me to pursue things that are of ‘building stuff’. Somehow they forget that men are placed on this earth to build things ???
You got to be careful about people …
When you get old and start losing your looks, and lost your fun youth attitude and also if you are coloured, you got to learn and learn and build and build because life is downwards after 29 years old.
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When I zoned our for years from 2020 to 2025, I finally got to specialization, specialization because of Tammy Nguyen.
She has a smart family in high places. I wanted to see what she was talking about. What was in her head daily when she is working with people and having family in high places.
I decided to venture doing my own thing and see how far I could go by zoning out by ‘refactoring’. This was because I wanted to see what Tammy sees and hopefully see more because I am old with some unique experiences. I have decades of practical life experience living in East part of Ontario in Durham Region, so I wanted to zone out more to see if I could see more than ordinary and expected.
Refactoring is the end task of programming for projects. You constantly do that at the end because you have built a solution that is 99% complete already. All that is left is trying to make it cleaner, more efficient. Eventually you add more features, more structure and that is continued until you have the most efficient project with novel features. You improve on it daily, weekly and monthly and yearly. It becomes the task you do everyday to improve everything including yourself.
I eventually got to the point where nothing bothers me as I gained high structured thinking doing my thing. At this point you can sort most life problems as logical and insufficient life experiences, lack of development for their passion and hobbies, lack of understanding of life in Canada, not understanding how people treat you in society because of ‘X’ number of reasons and being compliant in society.
That is why I stay home 99.999999% of the time because in the whole landscape of the World, I am ‘small change’. I focus on my projects to build something of value at least in my niches. So when I go outside I am not only a coloured person but a person with some thinking that defies everyday negative stereotypes that society uses daily on me personally and my people.
Also being sooooo niche and experienced from doing your thing and socializing and learning with your people born in Canada like you and others, you can counter every negative projection humanly.
At the end it is building yourself so much up and it is good that people have to respect it. Or there is no conditions not to respect you and what you are doing.
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Also when you are so smart by doing something so niche, all the problems of your parents and cousins and siblings are small and easy to handle. You grow so much depth and structure and complexity you see your family problems as a lack of experience, education, and good growth and not satisfying their ego.
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When you have accomplished so much but in a niche area, you have great merit that people have to listen and respect you. Your word and actions have value and meaning. No one can turn away really.
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But at the end of the day, everyone knows this when they are young. When growing up in the West sometimes just living you can become so self-centered and just chase money and dreams. There is a lot of friction trying to do this in society sometimes.