Updates (July 2, 2025)

You can talk and discuss and vote and protest … the only thing that matters at the end is work.

You got to zone out and put in the hours to produce something.

Regardless of race, culture or class you must find a way to work.

If you can’t find work, do solo study and research. Address your problems. Then address world problems.

If you don’t work nothing happens and there is no life.

I am lucky I have work to do with my father.

‘Canadians’ provide me my job and teach me the circle of life.

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There is so much depth now I see with Vietnamese born in Canada. I never knew this until yesterday.

We work alongside Westerners since we are born here.

We can offer something Vietnamese, something alternative and get along with Westerners. We have to because we are born here and feel like it is something we are and should do.

That is what I was escaping all this time.

I was looking for Vietnamese from Vietnam life. That got me stuck in a loop. But I did learn a lot of good things.

You are suppose to separate and mend with Western thinking at the same time while living your life.

I can do this working with my father as he works with Canadians.

That is the whole purpose of life in Canada.

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How I had to zoned out for 2-3 years and got published …

• When I went back to work in 2015 in Vietnam teaching, I got stereotyped.
• When I went back to work in 2016 working ‘jobs’, I got stereotyped.
• When I went back to school in 2017 studying just 2 courses, I got stereotyped.
• When I went back to work in 2018 working, nothing made sense as I was old at 35 and hit mid-life crisis.
• When I went back to school in 2019 for healthcare, I saw the immigrants from overseas and got stereotyped. It is a fierce competition with immigrants. I just wanted an ‘A-‘ really so I can have some opportunities down the road and I am a Canadian citizen with all the supports. Immigrants aim for the top and its tiring and not worth it to compete head on to be honest. But there is still room to work and study as I have half a brain and born here with the Western experiences.
• In Winter 2020, a nice lady student from college projected to me I should try using my brain while we walked to college. I had 50+ years left of life to make something of myself and have a life??? Get external validation???
• In 2020, I went back to finish my computer programming diploma that I started in 2017. I got stereotyped again and it wasn’t really fun but that is life in school.
• In April 2023, I finally finished school.
• Over the next, 2-3 years I grew with the help of Vietnamese and my friends to push towards working and web development. Must do one of the hardest jobs on the planet which is web development. This is the way for every man who knows what’s up.
• Realized something was missing … something intuitive and deep down … I focused on zoning out by refactoring a lot (create more efficiency and adding features) then I got published. You figure out later in life that life of an OK seasoned programmer is just refactoring after. You need to get this far to understand this. That means taking years or decades to see this through if this doesn’t make sense to you right now.
• Realized stereotyping helped me focus on doing my thing.
• Also realized that life is safe in Canada all along. Just zone out doing your thing and don’t think so one-sided and polar. Keep your mind active and broad all the time, getting broader and broader. This is just life and life as an old man.

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Interesting thing I am realizing with mixed people …

I am Vietnamese from both parents I think.

Mixed people usually meld.

They understand race and culture but figure a way to just make things work.

I sometimes think too polar and that gets me something and nothings. Mostly a bad thing.

Even with both parents from 2 different social classes in Vietnam, I still think polar.

That is not good in Canada and that is why I am stuck???

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Once you have a brain with coding and are old enough and are Vietnamese born in Canada, you can look for these things to do to keep happy and healthy:

• Try to focus on this way latter, something to give you hope at middle-age … After getting enough skills and knowledge and knowledge of current Vietnam and socializing with Vietnamese from Vietnam and the West, try to impress and entertain your Vietnamese people. That is a way to live really good. I understand the Canadian environment and different cultures here in Canada because I was born in Canada. You must be open and try to learn a lot. Well you have to anyways if you are born in Canada just to survive healthy. If you are born in the Canadian suburbs you got to try to get along and not be missing out.
• Try to be really knowledgeable to work with Canadians. That means studying as much as them and learning building/coding. At first this is hard, school is hard enough. Latter in life when you are settled you can keep trying.
• Socialize with Vietnamese from Toronto and your hometown to invigorate ideas and thinking. Join Vietnamese Student Associations from colleges and universities and add your 2 cents. Culture is a real thing and can grow and evolve.

The more you try and keep doing and just doing your thing, things can arise for fun, growth and meaningful socialization.

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All this blogging/journaling now at my age where I am working is for growth and adaptability. When you get to the stage where you work and the work is ‘building/development’ then you change to think larger and larger and adaptable. Just by having any job keeps you moving and growing.

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As a Vietnamese who is now accomplished personal things … it was all personal. Westerners published my works. I was born and lived the Western life. That is what life is about in the West. Living like its 1500 AD where you are using the mind.

Whoever says otherwise doesn’t understand me or the Western experience like me. It is the most fulfilling thing in life doing this in the West I think. My mom allowed me to live this way.

The Canadians where I work understand this and support it. It is a small thing really according to Canadians. The bigger picture is to live smart, humble and balanced alongside Canadians. Therefore you are not greedy and have great health and good thinking.

I needed to do my thing first.

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The key thing to my growth was watching my cousins grow on my dad side.

They are younger than me.

Now most are married with some kids.

I watched them grow and found out it was just work and opposite dynamics and mixing out.

Then the cycle of growth, rest and more growth.

My cousins on my dad side had each other and the Vietnamese community in Vietnam so I learned from that.

I did not connect with Vietnamese in Canada as it is too out there with just Tony Tie and Tammy Nguyen. Too vast.

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So life in Canada as a Vietnamese person in the ‘dark young world’ is trying to stay positive and play all defense on every angle to feel good and forward. And live so broadly that no one can define you. That means you have to work and study all the time.