Updates (June 23, 2025)

What was life before going to college in 2019?

I was building PCs and doing technician work. I was buying parts from FB Marketplace.

Life was nothing much.

I learned coding later and could almost build anything and now I did not need anyone really as I could finally use Google fully to learn and do most things. This is thanks to Tan Vu (John) teaching me to never give up as there is probably the guaranteed answer down the road.

That is scary. Scary how much things changed over 5 years.

I guess going to a multicultural college in one of the most diverse areas in the world changes you (Scarborough, Ontario) for healthcare.

But what did I really do after?

It got me wanting to be externally validated.

It made me want to try and live a full life, full of work, study and research.

It made me think greedy and also made me think bad.

I guess you need all those experiences to live and then go back to a job that is normal.

But you still need to learn and grow and be on top of things and still within limits. You aren’t suppose to mess around.

If you mess around so much then there is nothing positive no more in life and you die.

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It is surreal to have done stuff that my 12 year old self wanted to do and more. And then grow to have a normal life after. I guess I did what I needed.

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I guess I can go back doing my normal jobs.

The jobs I did before did suit me and caused no problems with people in society.

All I know now are the boundaries of life and thinking. And I just live normal now.

I guess everyone needs that, to know the limits of the body and mind.

That is why some athletes try so hard until they break/get an injury and throw in the towel.

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