Updates (June 10, 2025)
The thing about learning and researching and developing, especially solo is that doing more seems bad. It is like wanting more, but wanting more and searching gives you hope. Without hope you lose out in life.
Studying more and more and switching to a life of learning and hard work makes you have a good life full good feelings and can plan out what to do next.
Computer programming working with Ben Cybulski for the last 8 years gives you so much oversight that you can literally do most things.
That is what is a good life in the modern world.
The websites wouldn’t be here without Ben Cybulski.
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The thing about life is the dynamism of race, culture, the West and support. At the end of the day when you are 35+ or matured earlier, then nice things can happen instead of the default things people expect of people.
The timely thing that kept me from being affected by negative society is the Western way of life from the 1990s.
That is when people did the things they wanted in life and zoned out in it for years or decades until something was produced.
That is the key to showing your face. Everyone knows it. By the time people are 29 years old and about to crash into their 30s, they have to make a decision to either work on themselves again or not.
If you failed university and getting that research career, then it is time around 30s to try again but with the experiences of failure in the past and the “no turning back” like you see in the glory past movies of yesteryear.
You don’t know it until you keep trying for years and years.
I started working my passion computers in 2017 and finally broke through in 2021 with the right supports. And only in 2025 at the age of 41 I don’t mind learning a lot and now I like to improve.
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The cool thing about zoning out on a team that has their own feel and goal is that actually nice unique things can happen.
You can actually zone out for 5 years and end up not 100% good but 250% better than expected if you chug along.
But as an old guy who is past 35 years old things might go this way.
The society acts young, that is a problem maybe … Acting young is setting up young stereotypes without processing more than 1-dimension.
For example, someone might have all the education and experience in the world at 29 years old working for a bank doing coding everything.
But to do things with a small dedicated team, requires living like Westerners taking the time and reflecting to what you feel. Therefore you got a product that has something people want. Just like in the past in the 1970s-80s when computing started to become widespread.
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The thing of being Vietnamese …
In society, people are expected to do certain things according to stereotypes usually.
But when you get 35+ in the West sometimes the stereotypes are still so bad that you need just to work on yourself all the time. The Vietnamese stereotypes were still so bad doing anything for me in 2019 and 2020 at 35 years old.
And after a period of time, you got something and more you got something unshakable.
And now you understand the underdog story of being Vietnamese and the idea of dynamism.
That is the thing you get at the end. After you worked so hard in life and gotten 250% returns, you just take everything after as dynamism. Because you are Vietnamese you have to strive beyond what negative people think or say.
Normal Westerners don’t care really when they are 29+ with kids in toe.
But for some people who are naturally negative, just do your thing and one day you keep going along.
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Deepest part of a person is ego.
I even see this in other groups who say in front of me that they are not egotistic.
The only way to grow beyond ego is to do your thing that you are so passionate about and do it for years and decades.
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Most Asian groups over centuries just strive for professional careers. But my dad told me how many Nobel prize winners and scientists are Asian that write and create textbooks? You have to strive and strive to learn and learn for life like Westerners to have the good life. But if you are so passionate and keep working for years and years even decades, working hard brings hope just like how Westerners think.
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I am socializing with the new generation of Vietnamese.
I realize they all think like me when I was young in the 2000s but it has become about fame and fortune and social media which is 1-2 layers thick.
That won’t get them the real hard work of working in solo and also with the team zoning out doing specialty work I think.
Maybe I am socializing with the group within the large group.
There will always be the group 10 layers deep in solitude research really and that is the only real health.
And everyone knows that.
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After doing something that are well received and learning so much about study and life and history, I now realize all conflict is based on ‘bias’. But the best people are mixed here in Canada I think.
Then you realize all the mixed people did great things really??? There are certain countries that are mixed/in between that don’t think in black and white mostly.
For example, my mom side for at least 3 generations married within the same social class in Vietnam and came from educated backgrounds working in teaching and government. My father came from mostly farmer backgrounds, And both are from the south and in Vietnam. Instead of looking at it bad like people from different levels all day, that dynamic at the end works well for me in Canada. Basically I am kind of mixed in Vietnam from a Vietnamese standpoint.
Therefore, I only get along with mixed people who don’t think in concrete boxes as that doesn’t help no one at the end of the day. And everyone knows this. When I walk around no one hates me because I think pretty mixed. As I get older everyday, people see me mixed more and more. They realize Vietnamese person like me doesn’t think black or white and they let me be. I can walk anywhere and no one bothers me. And that is why I live in Oshawa too. People don’t care that a Vietnamese guy is shopping at the superstore or enjoying a coffee at Tim’s.
In Canada sometimes, sometimes growing up you think one sided, then you realize at the end of the day when you get old you are who you are.
God brings people together, my mother married my dad because of their bias internally.
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If I think naturally my way before it was bad and meaningless. I did nothing much. That was from 2009 – 2015.
When I started believing in myself and worked to define myself, things changed and I got working and got accomplished. This was in 2016 – 2021.
But at the end of the day, not mixing out and being laxed on your preferences you don’t have family of your own in Canada.
The sad part of reality is the part of living. Some people live better than others and that requires mixing to solve.
All the chaos is because people think in boxes and have bias. There is conflict.
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The thing with life is the work you do too.
The thing is that software is one of the main drivers in modern society.
If you go that route then you end up working with Ben Cybulski.
But actually you can not separate work and life.
People like to say that but the real push is to do work in fields like this and make a part of life and your culture.
Then you think in energy and don’t hate no one.
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