Updates (June 1, 2025)
So yeah …
Being born in Canada has this feeling from grade 4 …
It is about learning and doing your thing to make you feel good.
That is what I learned out in Ajax, Ontario in the early 90s.
Now I am 41 and now respectable people see me.
I grew the Western Vietnamese and Asian way.
Tammy and Tony helped me.
They told me to do work my way.
Was it right? Yes mainly because I got to do something that was me and that I liked.
The racial thing is apparent and doesn’t help my case become content as a Vietnamese man. It doesn’t address growth for me or living for yourself to be content and happy. That is what happens outside.
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So life is getting harder and harder in the West.
Staple jobs for Vietnamese are not profiting as before.
Can I teach? Most people born in Canada know the route. It is all intuition. But the thing is that for coloured people you do need friends who think on your same frequency to grow. And grow into old age. Life is not living in your 20s forever.
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I finished working on Sophia Script Wrapper v2.x I think. It could use more refactoring. But I think I have done enough and now I need to work on SophiApp.
It took me from 2021 to 2025 to feel ALMOST complete doing the Wrapper. I almost feel comfortable now. All this while navigating life doing my thing in the background. Lots of growing during that time and socializing with Western peoples.
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That is the thing about life most people forget. Learning takes time. Complex stuff like maths and programming take a lifetime.
I can complain all I want and vent, but the thing is that you are suppose to vent and complain until you are at the ‘end’. WHILE doing your learning and growing doing maths and programming. That is the trick to life and living long.
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What I realize after socializing with Tammy and Tony and understanding their parents.
If you worked in Western society enough, you realize the best way to live is doing your own thing.
My brother William worked for years doing service work for a Internet provider company. He understood people. He understood enough to avoid the young ‘growing’ society and do his thing so that is why he created BenchTweakGaming.com.
You have to do stuff that you like so much as that it grows you and feeds you. It feeds your soul.
That is the problem when you are young. Young people may fight and compete fighting for the wrong things as everyone knows in the West self study and doing your own thing in research and education is ‘the study’ you should be doing. But the thing is that to get there you need socialization during with people and similar people to further develop it. You need to understand people from the young to the old and in-between.
My brother is OK about what he has done so far but as a old man he has to reach and do more to keep busy for health and life.
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I complain a lot but I have life problems like everyone else in their 40s. Young people don’t understand until they get 40.
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My parents continue to scold me to study and study and never give up.
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Everyone knows this in the West if they are born here. You are supposed to do stuff you like and educated yourself until the end.
The problem for me is not finding other Vietnamese friends born in the West you have the same feelings about life here??? You have to have friends who feel the same …
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The perplexing thing about life in Canada/West is the diversity.
What am I doing at 35+? What is my group doing? What is others? Are we supposed to think in groups?
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Some people feel sick and tired for many reasons …
Some people don’t have alternative points of view and lifestyles to compare.
If you live different and below your current lifestyle, you at least have something to relax in for a period of time.
But also if you don’t try your hardest in life to reach the highest works then you also get sick wishing and being lazy or just not knowing.
When I am programming, I have the highest self-esteem and highest health.
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To get work born in the West, you just do what you like. There aren’t people involved really. The work has to be beyond people really. Get to the core of the person.
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As an old man now, what would I teach people? or my students as a teacher if I was going to be one?
You have to understand people in and out, also find an opposite gender friend to understand life. After socializing for years then you realize it is telling people to do what they like. This is after reaching the very top in understanding life and skills.
For example, I did my own stuff in software and worked in web development. Doing more web development just takes time because everything is pretty much already written. You just got to understand and implement your own version. It will take a lifetime and it is one of the hardest works.
After you accept that and understand life is hard work (… can be), you socialize and realize everyone is doing their own thing at the end. No one really can care so much about others as they are doing stuff.
You really have to understand you are doing stuff. There is no people really involved. You are doing stuff.
Fighting for support and recognition is not the thing. Trying to live for face is not either. You are just living and doing stuff. This is what I learned in the West.
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What is my resting state personality?
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I realized SophiApp v2.0 uses WinUI3.
That is daunting.
I am not an expert at this.
Maybe I should first learn to make an alternative version of SophiApp ‘v1.5’ in WPF and C# so I can understand stuff first.
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The fun thing about living in Canada …
Because I learned finally how to socialize with Vietnamese born in Canada and worked hard jobs and reflected and grew after, the next thing is to do more software app creation to learn the ways to make things proper.
SophiApp v1.x was created years ago using WPF and C#. v2.x is created using WinUI3.
I am still learning. I guess I have to do one slowly learning they way and have fun doing it. ‘My way’.
I learned to have fun now.
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If you don’t learn and grow and be educated then life is problems working in the world.
Especially when things are divided based on groups.
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