Updates (May 28, 2025)

What is life like after doing ‘this’?

I remember telling the story of my childhood and young adulthood, seeing other Asians focus on study and research in the past.

What has life come to now at my age of 41 years old?

It has further cemented me in a new way to focus on what I like and zone out doing my craft at home.

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Today I went out to shop at a supermarket. I saw people younger than me and also saw older people.

It became apparent that I am old now and am on the older side.

People tolerate me because I am ‘old and experienced’/’experienced and old’.

As a Vietnamese I had to grow up faster than normal to live against the constant negative stereotyping I had growing up.

Now hardly people bother me because I am an old experienced fart.

There is no point to bother an older Vietnamese guy because at this point I am thinking universal and old. Older than them.

Everyone gets to this age where they are just old and understand the world and how things are. It gets to a point where people, don’t question old people as everything is understood really beyond everyone’s years.

When you are young, people like to try things with people with there young understanding of things.

But as an old guy with experience, it doesn’t really stir much because you have old experience and age doing quite a bit of things in the West for decades and decades.

Racism and ethnic cultures are just things to count and add to the big mosaic mostly. Some people are very smart and intelligent with lots of technical and world knowledge.

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Ethnic people with kids …

Where are mine?

I guess I can live in the West doing my thing with the team.

But where is my family?

What job must I do to have a house, car and assets?

Kind of difficult situation when the system is designed for penny pinching, individualism and research.

I guess life was service jobs … but I had to have my share.

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I guess it is to do what you want in life than worry about what I said above …

I always wanted to do my thing in life and finally got to it.

I like research, studying and experimenting.

I finally got it as I have other Vietnamese scholars noticing me finally.

I guess in life you eventually do what God intended you to do.

The way there is just bumps and learning, solidifying your way to your goal.

Now I don’t complain and try to change people. Everyone has a personality and separate goals from you.

Therefore, all the hiccups and fighting and quarrelling, including racism are just there for you to learn from then. Like studying ‘society’ which is what you need to learn from to do your goals.