Updates (May 16, 2025)

There is the duality of being Vietnamese and being in the West.

The Western stereotype I grew up with is harsh.

But Vietnamese from Vietnam don’t know about it.

Vietnamese in Vietnam survived for their independence and are no quitters.

But when you are born grown up in the West you are feed this harsh stereotype. It doesn’t help me.

So I do what I can ignoring people. That is all you can do.

So does that mean life is all about culture?

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My cousins who are 10-15 years younger than me on my father’s side basically all have kids now. Their parents are happy having grandchildren.

What am I doing? I did what I liked and now got achievements. But no family or children of my own.

That is the dilemma of life as a Vietnamese 1st gen trying to ‘feel good’.

My cousins parents understand what I did. I kept going and going until finally I made something. I see the difference now. I see how my aunts and uncles react to what I am doing. The duality shows now.

It is just routine work now? Just routine work and general understanding and living of life and family?

Anyone that does more achievements is on the way to singlehood forever???

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My brother kept me from doing routine work. He dreamt of a grand life of coding and media and entertainment.

I achieved what I wanted and more. I did not realize this much could happen and there is even more to it. It is so big and unlimited. Can not hold it really.

Therefore, I realize now I have to have a routine life to even have a family now. But somehow learn … That is the thing you still have to learn and grow and do stuff to have ‘face’ and satisfy yourself.

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I see healthcare professionals working having a great life. That is all there is to life now. After I accomplished what I wanted in life I see how different life is.

But what is health and ego and feeling good? It was doing what I was doing for the last 4-5 years.

Building unique projects was everything for growth and feeling good.

But realistically, can I do that and have a family of my own???

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I figured out life now …

Your other half has to accept the life in Canada … have a partner willing to do more too.

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Being Vietnamese is hard? All I can do is do my own thing now.

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Life was understanding the world and the people in it … but it is also mainly doing what makes you love life. That is to ignore the negativity and have fun doing your thing.

Because once you got some unique thinking that pushes things further and people see that and learn from that. Then you got to repeat it again but better as you live in the real world. And then you do your thing again to have openness and freedom to enjoy and have fun. Again zone out doing your thing.

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Do I have anything in the West? Yes.

But I got to do the things I want just like my dad. When it is unique it is great. That is everything? Being unique is everything now.