Updates (April 5, 2025)
I went to the hospital in my hometown for a family member.
Things I learned at my middle-age:
- You will learn anyways. At middle-age you probably have gotten to the point where you are just a old person. You will learn regardless of what happens. So go get that degree or learn that thing you want. You are old and at that plateau where you know life enough that life just sits there. And you will proceed and live doing things.
- You can go through all your emotions and thoughts in life and they are all normal. Having good and negative thoughts is normal. At old age you just know they exist and you are human. Old and human and that life is full of good and bad and dark thoughts. You rest knowing that you are old and whatever. Basically you have whatever thoughts to power through life kind of. But living born in Canada is kind of whatever … basically you don’t want to get in trouble and just play with everyone.
- Fear and rejection is normal. It is just that you are old now and have mature things to think about so fear and rejection are 1% of life. The other 99% is actually doing stuff to keep busy and active and healthy to grow and become better.
- Young adulthood is a hectic. You hopefully grow from young adulthood and realize your younger thoughts did not mean anything much because people can grow and evolve. People who don’t think people can change and evolve are negative and you should not really interact with them because it is negative???
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If I continue to live in Western culture, I can learn the Western ways more and more and at older stages. But also I am myself. I have to think my way to learn and grow too??? My way that is natural to me and has brought some unique benefits.
For example, I developed some nice things with the team and got some benefits and a way to think that has grown and evolved over time. Something tangible that is also organic growing.
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I have some cousins that think like me. So that means something. My brother and sisters don’t think like me.
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If I supplant myself in a social setting working or doing something, I might get walled in. I studied and worked with my friends for 7 years and could grow doing something unique.
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It might be best to keep doing what you are doing alone here in the West. This is because:
- You need drive and doing things alone helps you feel good with your own ‘focused light’ especially as a newcomer to the West as a Vietnamese person donning the ‘negative Western born perspective’.
- The ‘Western Vietnamese stereotype is not good’. You got to walk around people who project that negativity and think for yourself only. Avoid thinking like them. Probably the best way is to avoid interactions outside entirely and focus on yourself with same frequency friends to even have a life.
- You need to grow and sometimes doing things out there feels kind of stuck maybe at times??? When you are young, there is ‘squabbles’ on how to do things and think and approach things.
- Working alone will help develop your unique perspective and that usually is worthwhile showing different perspectives, ideas and products in the process.
- You need practice to grow and learn. Everyone needs that.
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I have 2 parts to me. 1. My father side is farming, 2. My mother side comes from schooling. That range is different and should bring out something from grit.
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How many ways are there to develop in programming? What feels the best? What has the best benefits?
- Backend
- Apps
- Web development which encompasses everything
This is an interesting questions that are drawn out and complex.
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Thinking with people is OK but most of the time you are dealing with young people and there are squabbles and not open minded. No one is really willing to try your way or listen.
The old 80+ year old people allow for open discussion. That is why their are 75 year old presidents running the world.
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At the end of the day, you do think your way. And that way will make you better and well.
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All my illness and despair went away when I did my thing and developed with same frequency friends.
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You got to think higher than you think normally. Ben thinks the highest. I think lesser. So reaching that higher level thinking is what is needed in life for health and good mindset.
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The Western culture is good with its things to do (sports, medicine, food, thinking). But what is real health for me? I guess it is doing what you can to get that good feeling.
It should develop to something worthwhile and hopefully new and should ignite others (other similar people struggling) to strive for better things in life for optimism and better goals in life.
Definitely new things is worthwhile and and a new perspective is worthwhile to learn from.
Something new should arise from the gradual living and doing in life if you don’t let others control or stop you. Because you can learn from others.
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The real problem in life is sometimes the race thing. You should not let that dictate your life. I have a British and Russian friends that I work with and they are 100% in thinking without race overhanging every thought.
I guess at the end of the day you have to work with same frequency friends to work on things without barriers.
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I guess the groups I naturally click with think the same as me??? They are at both opposite ends of the ladder …
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The thing is when you get old, it is just high level thinking. Not about race or individual culture really.
But who are the people I naturally get along with to do the broadest freeing work? A man needs work. Same frequency friends. Interesting … After 2 years out of school, who are the people I work with who don’t give me trouble? Who stops my production and development? Interesting … A man needs to be free, open and ‘work’.
I am understanding work now.
I am understanding what people need now.
I am also understanding interests now.
A man needs to do interesting stuff and work.
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After basically finishing developing Sophia Script Wrapper that mainly relies on JSON, I am reflecting.
It is pretty unique. I am happy that I did it. It served me many purposes:
- It allowed me to do something different
- It allowed me to do something freeing
- It allowed me to practice
- It allowed me to grow
- It allowed me to make something tangible that I can show
- It allowed me to do technology
Now that I am done, I got to figure out the next steps. Find things to do because the process it better than the reward. You learn this after doing and working on a lot of projects. The process is always better. That is a life lesson to maintaining health and happiness.
This is possibly the things a man should do all day. An older man should do this list to maintain health.
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I got to a point where I feel greedy???
I don’t feel right.
I guess I got to reflect.
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Working with Ben is very broad.
I am grateful to work this way.
I guess people can find this way to work like this in the future in their field in time.
I guess you can look at it as just normal life if you kept your nose clean and focused on studying and working.
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Working with Ben did not give me stress because he actually wanted to help me.
That is what life is. You find people on your frequency and work towards just doing stuff and living.