Updates (February 4, 2025)
Got to do new things:
- If you don’t do new things, you rerun old stories of your past and past problems.
- You have to expand your horizons and learn about other people and not just go vertical doing your own thing.
- Life is actually more growth horizontally and vertically. When you expand horizontally that is health. Vertical is the constant tunnel focus climb that is stressful, so stressful. It is not healthy just to vertically climb.
- You need to learn from different perspectives and ways of living, it will open your mind. There are people out there that have lives that are more interesting than yours.
You will find people that you can socialize with and interact and learn from once you have done your stuff. Then live is good and exciting.
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I used to struggle all the time.
Now I learned life is a struggle. It gets to a point where you are used to it now. After ruminating and blogging about the negatives I see, I just accept the struggle.
I guess it took years to figure this out. You have to finish school and worked and worked and worked on the toughest abstract jobs …
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2 things that made me change: 1. Seeing the brilliant smarter An Xuan Phan not only go out of his field of mechatronics and learn financial advising and investing. Learn more than your scope and wants and needs and apply it financially for yourself and others and 2. Seeing more people nicer and smarter people with different takes on life with other cultures and points of view. Learn and live like others.
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The thing I realize about life doing thinking jobs:
- Vietnamese or coloured people born in the West understand life by the time they finish high school really. Life is like high school really. You can not study all the time like in post-secondary. You must live life somewhat like you are in high school. But some people can live in research and academics.
- Life in the West is everything. You get everything you want at birth really. You kind of do have a choice to do more if you want. If you don’t do more, then life is the routine almost. I got the opportunity to work with the greats though. That is not expected …
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Blogging has been helpful in growth and developing. I have been blogging since 2021 and have done stuff. I also reached more things while doing it.
But again, I am working with Ben and others and it is interesting. Working with the greats uses all your time and energy. I guess I am documenting this way.
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I see life is to continue to grow. After being negative and also the same time growing and doing my thing, I got tired of going back to square one thinking this journey is not right. Life is to continue to grow and have skills and do work and make money and have a career.
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I went to the bank today. People judged me:
- Some ‘Canadians’ are really forward. But doing what I am doing with Ben and others requires different thinking. What I am doing is not defined by normal work and normal lifestyle really. Therefore, it is it hard to judge me. But at the end do you want to be judge normally? Not really but yes. You also need a simple lifestyle to maintain good health but also some growth that is simple and somewhat tangible. I want a normal life now really that is ‘Canadian’ so I get along with the majority …
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I have a life now. It is because I understand hard work. Both normal hard work and reaching work.
It seems now in this Canadian environment you can life in the daily news with it’s trade wars and gossip, live with the majority or just keep working with people like Ben.
It seems now that everything offends everyone. Now I understand why people stay indoors and don’t socialize with their neighbors. It gets risky to talk about other things than the weather …
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It is coming to a point where you have to do healthcare for work as that is the only thing that makes most sense. It is neutral. Not trade wars or technological power.
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Good thing I am old now and people treat me better. I am old and only older people want to judge me. Young people see me as a old man and don’t want anything to do with me.
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I talk and think and try to come to terms of what I am doing. I guess that is life in the West. I toll and talk about what I want to do. Eventually coming to terms of what I am doing. Proceed or stop.
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As long as you are learning and not giving up, work, goals and making money are small steps.
I used to expect to finish great works done in 1-2 weeks but what I am doing takes a lot of time.
I used to get angry when I could not make money, but thinking work takes decades of studying and work.
That is why people give up, they can not take the decades of study and work. That is the deciding factor. Take decades or give up doing something else.
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It might come to this …
I have been studying for like a long time and it helps and is healthy. Will doing something else bring forth this health and forwardness?
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