Updates (December 12, 2024)

I used to hate working. Can you really push yourself to work and like working? Is there something there?

As a Vietnamese born in Canada, I felt always unwilling to work. How I grew up made me want to be lazy and watch TV and play video games all day.

In 2013, I made the push to do something with my life and 11 years later I like working and doing stuff. My brain changed. How I felt about life changed.

It was all doing the ‘work’ I loved and socializing. The more I socialized with other successful Vietnamese from Canada, it made me want to be like them and work and do stuff. Mainly male Vietnamese born in Canada made me change.

I guess socialization is the key and same culture and being through the first step of life, being a punk. I don’t know if genetics or my personality had a difference.

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Last week, I went to Mississauga to visit my friend who is originally from Vietnam. We ate pho, drank coffee and bought banh mi and talked a lot.

He shared his wisdom to me. I am lucky to have friend like him.

At the pho restaurant we ate small pho. It tasted great: 9.9/10.

The staff there understood me as a Vietnamese man born in Canada. Life and work was grueling. There was no expectations or wants in life here in Canada when work and life is so hard already.

Just working selling pho was tiring and having to deal with people.

I was understood and accepted there. I was accepted in Mississauga where the Vietnamese people were in Canada.

I guess being old at middle-age and 40 years old made the difference. Being quite experienced in life and dealing with people in Canada made us all connect and understand each other.

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I guess now is the time to understand life working working. After meeting my Vietnamese friend born in Canada and socialized with him for the last month or so, I understood the working and like working mindset of Vietnamese born in Canada.

People from the same background as me born in Canada made me change finally.

I will from now on take the action to do more with my time instead of taking my generous time doing the things I feel like.

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I am meeting more friends who feel this way now. I guess this is life to live the fullest.

Is it not selfish?

I think this is young adult life?

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I guess it is Vietnamese born in Canada from my same town that helped me.

For 40 years I did not interact with people that clicked and help me develop more like now.

But I guess every interaction got me here though.

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It is odd, in 2016 I was working nights in a supermarket in my hometown Oshawa and hated most things about my life. I hated my life 60% back then.

Back then I hated work. I was making minimum wage, never had enough money to do the things I wanted, was looked down upon, my body ached as I was old now. I looked at life bleak. I wondered if there was more to life than part-time 36 hours a week working nights at one of the largest supermarket in a city for minimum wage.

I had the similar feeling in 2019 studying and working in Scarborough. I was studying and tutoring. Life was tiring memorizing health terms and tips. How was I living? I felt OK. I was tutoring for a college and was in healthcare. It felt 60-70% good. There was upwards mobility. But something was missing.

When I look to healthcare, for the past 40 years, I did not know what it solved, solved. For me I was pushed in health care like many other people of my background born in Canada.

Then I realized the problem with what I am experiencing. When I was studying life science and nursing in the past, I wasn’t living life to the fullest. I saw other Asians doing healthcare and they seemed really involved. But I did not know how much. The Asian stereotype to just do medicine for status and money was what I knew. I thought it was just people studying people as rabbit specimens???

Then I worked with Ben Cybulski and then did things by myself then realized life is to go all in and to do what you like, like and keep going with it until doing everything seems normal and doable. Working with Ben enabled me to do most things. It got to a point where I could think alongside him almost. That is wild. I could program with ease and understand hard concepts. We could develop software for the market in many ways. Ben help change my mindset from being a computer technician to a very flexible programmer with ideas. I evolved.

Then when you have the experience like that, how do you approach ‘sick depressed people’ in the public while doing healthcare?

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If you look at life from my point of view, then working with Ben and then trying something yourself and further developing seems like the best possible life here in Canada!!!???

I did not realize it but I also had to develop myself too.