University
I thought of doing coding in university. I thought it was needed …
During 2nd year university, I found out that maths are more needed including coding. I was reluctant and dismayed. I thought I could run away from maths. I did not want to do math.
In my mind at the time, maths was not the thing to do. It was not enjoyable, it was too hard. Doing math felt like the worst chore … Growing up, was I taught math was too hard to do and to not bother with it? …
It looked like an entire life journey to stay in university studying forever all the bits and pieces of knowledge and education. I was prepared but wasn’t.
During 4th final year final semester, I did a coding course that was made for biology and chemistry students. I did well. I thought it was tough but manageable.
It was manageable because after 2nd year university, I went to work and held a job working tirelessly for hours. I built up the grit and resilience to just do. Just do as there was nothing else in life to do here in Canada.
After finishing school, I tried programming at university. I did well doing a first year first semester course. The final exam was killer but I managed. The final was 4-5 times harder than the hardest assignment.
At that time I understood life could be hard and the unexpected was expected so I did well enough doing that course.
When I did a real hard first year second semester course, I flunked out. I wasn’t savvy and passionate enough and I wasn’t competitive enough. I did not think in theory. I did not play in abstract numeric thought all day.
In university it was pure thought and reaching. Always reaching. Reach to the max and more.
I could not stay in thought all day. I was inexperienced and was still having my young adult fun.
I did not realize later in life that programming was the funnest activity I found to do …