Reasons
Previously back in 2003 during first year university, I wanted to build resources and learn a lot as I wanted to help and make resources and pathways available for Vietnamese youths struggling in life like me. There was a lot of negative stereotypes. My dad said just to concentrate on myself but I was met with lots of negativity growing up from others undermining me. This is expected growing up like every other kid. Pretty normal I guess … But what I experienced personally was very negative for me …
I wanted to build stuff and resources to help others in my shoes struggling to learn and grow and get out of negative situations. I was thinking very negative.
After finally getting out the negative environments and then working in my field with positive people on my frequency, I was able to do things and become strong and confident. Like minded people helped me outside. It was people on my frequency outside working all along that helped overall get past the squabbles.
Life is more than the squabbles??? You have to grow and develop past the general way of thinking and general life. This is true especially when you get older. I knew if I kept learning and followed my intuition, I would naturally gradually get older and get out of the young adult problem of squabbles with others. When you get lots of knowledge and “look old”, no one would bother with you no more and you can finally live your life healthy like an “older able mature person” minding old adult businesses. No more young adult thinking.
I built the websites to grow others and myself. You need to write and talk about your struggles here in the West to grow and mature, develop and learn.
There is this duality of living in the West. One with the West and one with “your people” and others. You have to live very forward to have anything healthy for me I realize. Also I have to live in my natural homeland culture that helps develop me “overall” too. If I don’t live in my homeland culture then I don’t have “me”.
Also, when I was in kindergarten here in Canada, I knew that because I was born in Canada, I had the opportunity for unlimited growth and was able to explore in Canada. I like to explore …
Current Reasons:
- I am getting older and it is devastating LOL! 😁 I want to see what happens if you study and use your mind in the second half of life.
- After finally socializing in my groups (Vietnamese and Vietnamese-North Americans), I understand Vietnamese culture mostly now and am growing in new ways that changed me. I wonder what will happen if I grow and accept these changes from my interacting in my groups while in North America.
- After placing what I have created with the help of my friends online, there is more growth after all the interactions. I realize I have to adapt too after. There is more I realize.
- I pushed and had results. It is very tiring and the future is unknown.
- The pursuit of coding and building software that mattered to me, helped me. But now I am done with my passions and projects. I don’t know what else to build LOL! Is life just ‘work’ now? LOL … 😕
- I think I need to go back to basics and get a normal job now … I hit something and it is not profiting. My hobbies don’t make money.
- I have to grow too. Everyone needs to grow. I am trying to find the balance. Work and to grow.
- I need to just do more work I guess. Enough reflection tells me to just do the things I love and want.
More:
- To stay strong, healthy and live long is to have a big appetite for more goals and accomplishments that are universal. The goals should be tangible maybe.
- You have to grow and grow.
- You need freedom to think and do.
- Accept people won’t understand you. People will think negative all the time about what you are doing. And that is stagnating and doesn’t help and isn’t healthy for anyone.
- I am learning about the general negative biases. It is held at a constant that people will project their negativity and biases all the time. Just listen and endure it and when they are done let them see what is really going on. Negativity and projections are just normal and you must endure it and then concentrate on yourself and friends to grow and enjoy your life. People will understand this at the end. The goal is to let people see the bigger picture that is always growing.