Reasons

I am getting older and it is devastating LOL! 😁 I want to see what happens if you study and use your mind in the second half of life.
After finally socializing in my groups (Vietnamese and Vietnamese-North Americans), I understand Vietnamese culture mostly now and am growing in new ways that changed me. I wonder what will happen if I grow and accept these changes from my interacting in my groups while in North America.
After placing what I have created with the help of my friends online, there is more growth after all the interactions. I realize I have to adapt too after. There is more I realize.
I pushed and had results. It is very tiring and the future is unknown.
The pursuit of coding and building software that mattered to me, helped me. But now I am done with my passions and projects. I don’t know what else to build LOL! Is life just ‘work’ now? LOL … 😕
I think I need to go back to basics and get a normal job now … I hit something and it is not profiting. My hobbies don’t make money.
I have to grow too. Everyone needs to grow. I am trying to find the balance. Work and to grow.
I need to just do more work I guess. Enough reflection tells me to just do the things I love and want.