Updates (May 8, 2025)
I realize how to live a life now. It must be smart and have ‘complete insight’ and proactive.
It can not be that laid back and ignoring. I must be active.
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It is 50 years after the Vietnam War.
I realized I had to do the things I wanted to save face. Regardless of everything in safe Canada you still have to have smarts and dignity for yourself in the world.
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There is the duality of being Vietnamese out in society.
- You have to live in the sympathetic Canadian culture and get treated OK but not great because you are Vietnamese still. But all that depends on age and experience … Things are changing??? It depends who you ask.
- If you do not do what you like in life and also be proactive you don’t even have a life in the West. This depends mostly on you. You realize this when you get older you need you time and to develop uniquely to have self-esteem.
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You have to do things on your angle at the end because that turns out to develop something unique and strong that you can hold for life.
I developed products that reflected me and my struggle and I can call that my own.
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I visited Vietnam many times (6 times). I learned about my culture and understood the factors that made it that way. Then I developed myself and believed in myself and created products with the team that addressed my struggles. Now I have something that I can hold onto for life and say I did that. This is if you think culturally and coloured.
For example, I work with Canadians, Polish, British, Mexico, Russians, Ukrainians and Vietnamese. Each has their own story.
I am writing my story … doing the things I am doing. Each person has a struggle.
Also as a Vietnamese with my own struggle it is healthy to keep pushing my way for a good life because the negative Vietnamese stereotypes push me to work harder.
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To get away from negative stereotyping in society, I just hang out in my room talking to my friends online and sometimes in person.
Lots of Westerners stay home on their computer and collab online. That is where it is good and safe. Lots of cool things happened brainstorming at home.
That is why Canada is nice. Even though people do not talk to their neighbors or even know them. Canadians stay home doing stuff still. That is the secret for a good life. Canadians are busy reading and playing and doing their hobbies at home.
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Yes, a lot of coloured people struggle in society. It depends on many factors. But the struggle can help drive people sometimes to do stuff not common and new.
Coloured people that do get sick mentally and physically is because they sometimes don’t understand the social dynamics of them and their people in the world. Once they understand it then they can address it. It changes as time goes on as more understanding and more interactions play out.
That is why I am learning more about ‘modern Vietnamese culture’ and trying to adapt to new people I meet and see what my current friends are doing to grow and have that progress.
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I am learning that my angle really as an angle worth developing.
Therefore, I believe every angle is worth developing.
As a Vietnamese man who tries to be balanced and also live in modern times, I strife to address my current struggles for growth and health in Canada.
As an old man, I am forgetting the old culture and the old ways I used to think. I used to think childish but now it is growth that is positive.
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To have that adaptability is to really get the programming edge.
When I finished school in 2008, I just had ‘classical maths’. I could do basic stuff.
But I always knew I was missing that grasp and control and freedom. When I did comp sci in 2009 I found it went to max and was abstract.
But I could not grasp it.
I took a break and lived life and went back to it in 2017. (I dabbled in it also in 2014).
Only in 2021, I could do programming well enough to have something different.
With programming I could grasp most concepts and ideas from others.
With support and pushing myself, I became knowledgeable, skilled and aware.
More aware and skilled as I continue and push and grow.
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Like I talked about before … I am just old.
With oldness you bring your own story and struggles over your lifetime to create something from decades of life experiences.
That is what young people don’t understand sometimes … only when they get old, old.
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