Updates (February 24, 2025)

I understand the diversity in thinking here in Canada now after I finally felt calm and not anxious no more.

Story mode:

After I peaked from experiencing web development twice (Twice is the key) I relax as an old man by sometimes walking around in my city, eating pizza, eating marinated tofu enjoying myself. I am finally old now.

One day eating take out, I finally saw how other but healthy people think. I never understood all the diverse thinking outside school and outside service jobs.

I know Asian people but now I saw everyone.

I realize more of two things:

1. There are lots of Westernized people of colour are trying their best to do good things learning from the Western ideals and trying to do new innovative things.
2. I should understand life is hard enough. I should mind my business and take my time to enjoy and learn. The strongest way of life is education and building yourself up to a point that you can protect yourself and think so broad. So broad that stereotypes and negative projections don’t bother you. You build and build up your consciousness that nothing bothers you because you are afforded that here in the West. If you don’t you get negatively projected against your whole life here and can not do anything.

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Also I learned that fighting and competition and negative projections are normal and a way to grow and do better too.

Sometimes people fight and it is bad. No one learns anything sometimes. Young people fight a lot. I am getting old and thinking old.

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Socializing with more Vietnamese from Canada has helped shape the slow enjoyable learning and broadening learning of life that I was supposed to have from the beginning if I grew up with other Vietnamese in Canada. That was the key. The slow relaxing journey of growing up in Canada with other Vietnamese. Learning the Vietnamese culture from many regions and worlds.

Also learning from all abilities of Vietnamese helped shape me.

Life is not just go to school and work. I am seeing Vietnamese growing up after young adulthood doing new innovative stuff.

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Sometimes thinking so coloured is negative and wrong. It doesn’t help. Sometimes thinking so stereotypically cultured is bad and their are fights and backwards thinking. Stagnating sometimes.

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Sometimes living out in society, you don’t grow. People want people placed in categories. So when you get older you look like an old person (invisible) and grow. That is just how it is.

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The good thing about growing old is that you really grow. You are disconnected from your feelings and just mind old wise life.

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The cool thing and simple thing, is that I have enough education I think and enough drive to tutor at tutoring centers at least.

I can actually have a broad life teaching.

It doesn’t pay well but it is something.

I don’t have a PhD but I have earned the skills to problem solve logical problems and feel at ease solving them. That is the key.

The key in programming is to feel at ease trying to solve the problem at hand in general software. That took me from grade 7 to now LOL!

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I always forget that computer programming is a skill that might take a lifetime.