Updates (February 21, 2025)

My mom yells at me to study and study still while she is still kicking.

In 2020, I went back to school for computer programming.

I wanted to quit in 2021. It got too hard.

I got help from Vietnamese from Vietnam. Their way of thinking helped me. John Tan Vu helped me so much.

I kept going and still wanted to quit.

Wanted to quit 3-4 times.

Now in 2025, I see everything is OK. I got past the struggle and hurdle.

Now I relax and take my time.

I don’t really care no more.

I peaked a few times thinking that was all life was about but no. There was growth and maturity and wisdom beyond school and people.

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Also I learned that the way I think is unique.

The way I think helped me get through the conformity and system of society.

That is the whole point of life. To live, live.

You go beyond the social norms and grow beyond people.

That is maturity and the way of life of an old person. Grow beyond stop and go.

Westerners understand this well.

I am doing my own thing too as everyone is different.

This is normal though.

There is no more push really to try so hard because I learned quite a lot of things to have (1) explore, (2) survive, (3) to feel confident and good. Anymore is quite odd and just streamlining and consolidating. It isn’t something you push really in the West.

You have everything here in the West and the job is to think broad really. Can not do both and just work, work, work as that doesn’t fuel the soul and lifestyle here.