Updates (February 17, 2025)

After everything and deciding to rest and idle and work and push a bit, life is good.

I walk more. I go outside more. I sleep more. I have good sleep now.

This is because I found the peak. It is not worth it to push for the next 5-8 years trying to do web development freelance at maximum sprint.

I will take my time and feel and have surplus of energy.

I will go and eat at a buffet or get takeout. No rushing no more.

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As an average guy working with both Al from AMLCSL and Ben, it was tough and full on learning rush and anxiety keeping up with both.

I guess that is my ‘unique’ life working with the greats out here in Oshawa, Ontario, Canada. That is my unique life.

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How does it feel really being a Vietnamese born in Canada?

I used to feel angry and awful all the time feeling … but at around 35 years old I finally met a person that explained to me how to live here in Canada. And now recently I found another person helping me grow and live. These people are Canadians. They understood where I was coming from and corrected my way of life.

So I can actually do what I want. I just have to talk and network with people who see my growth is an addition that can be used somewhat LOL! Freedom to play and do and build?

That is the problem I see with my thinking. I need to feel my efforts mean something LOL! It has to be tangible?

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What is the best I can do with my thinking, being, and trajectory here? That is what I want to know and feel with people and ‘my people’?

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It feels bad when you aren’t working hard, hard.

You then start thinking about your past works, past thinking and what you are currently.

That is why my parents push me to be on the go.

That is why my parents are floating and still well. They are constantly thinking.

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The thing you realize after working normally and then working with Ben Cybulski for many years that how large and big can you think and think?

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As long as you have friends of the same frequency and mainly culture??? in Canada, everything is good. I finally connected and have a routine conversations with Vietnamese born in Canada and we are all on the same boat and feel good on our route I think???

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The worst possibly low of every person or man is that you don’t believe in yourself and people not believing in you.

More worse that that is if there is such thing as “your people” or “culture”, is that your people don’t believe you can do anything or anything worthwhile.

It is a constant go sometimes. Different perspectives and different culture and people look at things differently and weigh things differently. So at the end you only have yourself to make yourself happy and keep going. You have to find people who feel the way you feel and that is normally people in your own shoes walking the same path.

That is why there are culture and race concepts? I am not sure. If you are born in the West that idea of race and culture matters but doesn’t if you think around it. You have to think around it to do more and different and new. People around your frequency is all that matters really to debate and honour your ideas. You have to disprove others because it does nothing and is jarring.