Updates (February 9, 2025)

I learned something about people and culture:

• Vietnamese people really expect something from me. After awhile it become normal to have Vietnamese expect something from you. This is after you tried and tried and made something of yourself.
• Only good friends expect something new, developing from you.

At the end it has to be realistic and good development. If it is just money and the highest expectations in career and status then you got to avoid it. As at the end of the day, you can actually only do what you like really. It is kind of worth it and not worth it to try so hard, hard.

For example, if you did cool things in the public eye, then you can teach and coach. You don’t have to struggle so hard and do just hard things all the time when you have reached widespread approval. You can coast a bit really.

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I realize after awhile everyone may need to develop to become better so they stop negatively projecting.

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Also you should not listen to people who aren’t in the position you want to be in. You can learn from everyone but you should not listen, listen to the negativity if there is.

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I learned Vietnamese people born in Canada have this mentality:

• They know the pros and cons of Canada:
  • Pros: It is a nice country and everyone is pretty nice. It is developed. You don’t lack anything.
  • Cons: Not really anything.
• They understand that life as a born Canadian citizen can really go up if you try really hard, network and working with better people.
• They watched a lot of Western movies and media so they are exposed to everything good and bad perceptions and expectations.
• They aren’t really stressed as they grow up in their communities and probably have seen all the cultural gossip and expectations. That is what I lack. I haven’t been placed in my culture here so I don’t know how to think on the same wavelength and bond.

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Web development is pretty much everything. You can develop lots of different things on there. That is the goal really but it gives you a goal that is unreachable which is good. High goals is life.

If you just strive for backend development that is normal. You go about your day solving math problems which is realistic. You go about your day having the thinking life with it’s ups and downs.

That was my problem in life. I was looking at the big, big picture which gave me stress and anxiety really. Now I just do backend development mostly, I am at ease. I have the same problems as most people now. And now I just listen and work with people who have my same job and same life experience.

Now I just stay at home and just live life. No need to go exploring so much. The less the expectations is good.

This wouldn’t be possible unless I tried everything in life first. Now I know the hardest stuff for me, now I live a realistic life.

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I am grateful to have been born in my place. I experienced everything I wanted. I can now either go up or down independently. Thank you!

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I absolutely knew it. I knew math and living out your ‘thinking’ dreams and trying hard was life. I met a lot of naysayers in my life growing up undermining me. I did everything I wanted and more. Now I rested in more logic work to be sane. Never listen to any negativity in life. Only listen to people who have a life you want. No one can have the life of others but reaching 99% of theirs is like max. Basically trying to work and think like Ben is like the top. Life is about work and doing you want mentally. Never listen to anyone who wants to stop you from doing intelligent work. Health and life are intelligent things. The ‘fantasy’ media only works for the majority and when you don’t look like the majority then you use your head. No questioning that. When you are faced with the majority, what do you do?

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Medical advice I have received in my life was neutral that it did not help.

There are social factors and psychological factors that play in everyone’s life. If you don’t address it then you get sick I think. For example, I am treated horribly by ‘unhappy’ people in society. Therefore, I must do 2 things:

1. Feel sorry for the unhappy people BUT …
2. Still think and grow and do to excel in life because I am coloured and ‘life is about thinking for me’ and not what the media says. That was my problem before. I did not grow as an individual. First I grew doing what I liked and grew in my culture and fixed my negative and lowly thinking because I was able to turn around negative concepts of race and stereotypes. The people who have nothing will eventually do something about having nothing if they have the proper supports and education. This is an old concept that is true and seen over time.

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Currently how the world is, it is still negative stereotypes since like 50 years ago for my people and others. I guess that will take time. So it is best to improve with your people and avoid unhappy people in public.

The reality is to grow and learn and develop to reach the stage where you can think about general life. This will maintain health and give you room to think otherwise than what other people say and do. There are opposite choices people can make to life better and more healthy and open minded but still good and right. It is that knowledge and intensity to do more and think alternative to have choice and good things. It requires lots of knowledge and building.

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Back when I was working in the supermarket at age 33, I realized my joking lifestyle wasn’t really good, good. I was having fun and learning as I go. But my male coworkers were mad at me when I joked and said I did poorly at university. I was living in Oshawa and working at the biggest supermarket nights. The people here are hard, hard workers and strive for better and better. My coworkers said that you are supposed to try hard or your hardest all the time. You are supposed to try your hardest at university. That stung hard.

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The key is effort and time. No one wants to attempt that really. If anything takes effort and time most people will give up in 2 months. So when you tried hard for decades, then people respect and listen to what you have to say and look up to you and try to emulate your grit. Most of the media news outlets says the person is smart or a hard worker. But the reality for most good things is to take decades for good realistic measure. Start when you are young or after university then I guess … I tried somewhat since 2009. Tried again in 2014 and then in 2017 and then tried all out in 2020. Got recognized in 2021. I really wanted to program in grade 7 at 12 years old … so it started back then. Also when you are coloured and realize reality quickly. By living with the majority you are learn quickly …

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I am talking like an old man now. LOL!

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After realizing how hard life work can be doing creative web development, now I want to learn again like a student. Take life on easy mode.

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When you achieved intelligence and skill and still get treated like nothing, then you realize life was all about doing intelligence here in Canada really but also continuing and helping others achieve this level of learning and constant growth.

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I rested on doing more backend development. Now I see what working with Ben is like after the pause. Life is basically do your thing and when you are done work with the greats. That is all there is to life I guess. My life is normal without working with better people. That is all there is. Working with Ben for the last 7 years I forgot normality.

It was hard growing up but that is life. But I live in Canada so I am grateful. So now I work with people who are better than me.