Updates (January 7, 2025)

How do you look at life at my point? I was just a 35 year old man in 2017 working a job and then I worked with great remarkable people like Ben Cybulski, Dmitry Nefedov and Simon Fisher.

Things grew and grew and reached so far that there is unlimited growth and unlimited potential.

So was life after school was to work with smarter and more wiser people that push away ‘squabbles’? There isn’t the competition and aggression like working normally … .

I guess this is life after growing up and working.

You don’t worry about everyday people no more. No more headaches if you just concentrate working with Ben, Dmitry and Simon.

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A vegetarian diet keeps you focused.

When I ate meat I had the bad feelings and anger.

Eating vegetarian I only think about good things and working. And looking to do stuff more.

The food cravings and the guilty feelings are gone and different.

Eating vegetarian allows you to focus on life for me.

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For most of my life here in Canada, I thought about race and culture relations. Trying to do work and get along with people from all walks of life.

But in reality no one cares once you reach middle-age +. Everyone at middle-age is busy. They have a run down body and face and look forward to lunch and a warm meal when they have a chance.

They hate thinking about people and how to act around people as their youth is gone. They live in their heads and singularly work alone …

And when you are middle-age and work with cool people … then life takes a complete turn.

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There is a point at middle-age when middle-age people look and compare themselves to people around the same age range …

They feel aloof mostly. Life can either be a little bit better or a bit worse. They have that space and range to dwell in it or not. With that space they might get a little minor sad and depressed if they don’t have a family yet or never studied enough to be smarter. They kind of see their mistakes not pushing forth education and hard work when they were younger. They have lost their youth and are idling living monotone routine. That is what I see now. I had the chance to work with cool people that pushed me out of routine.

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How is life exactly like in Canada? … Superficial? Smart? Hardworking? Cultured?

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I went to Peterborough today. I ate at a burger joint. Peterborough feels like Ajax, Ontario in the early 2000s.

The people there are ‘Canadians’. They are smart, independent and hard working …

That is the difference you see. In some parts of Canada there is OK work and then you see Peterborough as a place of remote independence.

Knowing that you feel the need in learning and doing more to earn the knowledge and respect and fill.

It definitely keeps you healthy and motivated. Motivated to learn Westernized ways more.

I guess that is life. Keeping yourself busy like this is important and healthy. You can not really ask for more in life.

Tons of things to do out east.

The old people working and eating a burger out east are living life. Their minds are full doing far out things. There is no limit out there in the world. That is what I forgot and wasn’t sure of. Today marked a day to see how far people think when they are out and about and not ‘worrying’.

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I used to think just coding and computers. Then I went to Peterborough and at my age now I saw a whole new world of maturity. People are doing stuff and active there. Lots of things to do when you get older. I did not see this here in Oshawa when I was in school and living in GTA. It makes you really wonder. There is a whole new life at my age now I see. Mature and smart smart level.