Updates (January 5, 2025)

More things to think about:

• I realize this in life: I am still learning and growing. It is endless learning and growth.
• I have to find people who support me to grow and learn. I have a few friends who do. So everything is OK really. Basically same frequency friends.
• Some people don’t grow. They don’t grow their consciousness and reach and do the same job over and over thinking that that will win people over. They live thinking their way is right when in fact it is growth.

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I finally understand the definition of passion.

Passion comes from the Latin root passio, meaning ‘to suffer.’ Being passionate isn’t about liking what you do—it’s about driving yourself to unhealthy extremes to make something exactly the way you want it. It’s about obsessing over the smallest details, the ones most people will never notice or understand. Be passionate. Suffer.

So in another way, I do the thing I want because I am so concentrated in doing my way without the influence of others. So therefore I guess it is OK to venture out on your own even when no one understands my life.

That is the whole point of life. No one understands my life. I don’t understand other peoples lives. The more I go through life and develop it, no one understand it as it has become more complex. Therefore you do what you want without really caring for what others think so you have something to do and long for. That is health.

I used to get bothered by people so much. I just do things my way. That is life. The people or naysayers have a different life and different goals that differ from my passion. That is life.

I made a huge deal of it for no reason. No one understands you. No one understands why you do the things you do. No one understand anyone really. That is life.

The alone time in your room, what do you really do? That is life. The socializing is good and all but that isn’t your personal time, that time is to learn more from others. Not to get negatively swayed and not to stop.

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When your life gets more complex, then you realize no one has your life and no one understands your life. Then you can ignore everyone finally. It has gotten too complex.

I found this out when I started socializing more with like minded people and people of my same background.

Especially when they are in my field then I see people as separate beings doing their own thing.

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When you have a friend like Ben Cybulski, the scope of life is moved above general norms.

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I hate going outside now and meeting people really. When you have worked with people like Ben and Dmitry you understand that life can be so much more and more nicer and meaningful.

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I realize this more now in my 40s, naturally men born in the West are empty at birth. Really the way Western men grow up is from an empty shell. Some women expect men to have it all at 24 years old don’t understand the way men are raised sometimes in the West. I reflect as see that I am empty really too. We are raised superficial. It is up to some men to build themselves up working with like minded people and same background if they want to.

Some women from overseas don’t understand this. Women from Vietnam expect men to have it all born in the West. But really it depends on Western culture. It is a balance here in Canada. When you go outside working it is based on all factors.

But you can grow old and wise working with great people like Ben and Dmitry.