Updates (December 29, 2024)

I guess life for me was to socialize and socialize with Vietnamese born in Canada. Talking is normal now. It is subdued now. Life is forward but everything pretty much 50:50. You can not be treat others better or worse. You can not be treated worse or better. Talking to Vietnamese born in Canada showed me how to handle people and life all over the world. Life is whatever, life is normal. There is nothing more or less, life is pretty simple to understand once you socialized enough with people who have the experience of life from up and down. I did not socialize when I was younger, I did not reach out to Vietnamese in the city for friendship. I stayed out in Eastern Greater Toronto Area (GTA) alone pretty much.

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To grow old and mature is associating yourself and befriending strong more established people for years and to grow together each other strong. You have growth and someone to talk and grow with.

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The duality of life as an Asian guy in Eastern Greater Toronto area. You have to live both worlds. You have to be strong both sides of life (facing the West and facing the colored). I found that doing the stereotypical thing of studying and studying and working and working doing my thing gave me all the strength and levels. So much levels that I can think broader and look at life simple as something in front of me. It took a lot of socializing with people on my wavelength and higher. Especially Vietnamese born in Canada.

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I am 40 now, turning 41 next year. I still get stereotyped by people older than me sometimes. I can ignore them now I realize. The naysayers lived a stereotypical life and don’t expect change and growth from other or even themselves maybe???

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I developed this website helping others think and work like me. It is growth and change. Change from the stereotypes and really different because I work with Ben and Dmitry. Really reaching and changing. The growth has been high. So high that I have built something and challenged stereotypes.

I found some people still naysaying for no good reason. I guess I have to continue to grow and build resources for my sake and my groups. Life is only worth it if there is change and growth. Ignore everyone. I am doing this for my health and growth and people in my shoes.

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Good thing when you get old, you stop living for others. You really become the person you really are but with huge levels and stories built on top of your likes and dislikes but are neutral. You are just a person with likes and dislikes. If you played your cards right, you have a good amount of accomplishments that prove your growing and growth. After than you are just a old person doing what he can and likes to have a mature old stable life. You feel good now at this point.

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Greatest thing a person can do to understand life from the race, goals and society is to socialize with people from the same background. After I talked to Vietnamese born in Canada, I stopped caring what other people think and have grown and risen from general stereotypical projections. As see through people now from our standpoint.

So it is like this in this racist superficial world, “Yes, I am Vietnamese and you can treat me whatever because of the Western/World superficial stereotypes that exists. But the reality is that you are projecting negativity and see things negative because that is the way you are and what you learned growing up. You are comparing and you see things negative. But I am old now and don’t care no more. It is 50 years after the Vietnam War and things are changing. And you don’t want change …”.

I still see this negativity from negative people. But they don’t understand that they can change too. Most people live in stereotypes. They don’t think they can elevate change and grow 100x. Ben Cybulski and Dmitry Nefedov taught me to live in my head and I grew immensely.

Doing maths and programming and addressing your problems creatively can change the entire landscape. You can actually see how people think and let them see that and then they are stunned how negative they think and then they stop. Human to human they realize the wrong and are humanized.

I have done some stuff that possibly means something. Everyone can.

Anyways you are supposed to grow more really. Grow and obsess to change things.

When you have grown so much and creatively done something worthwhile then people will stop.

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When you have met your match, then growth and talks are normal.

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When you get old and done with the 9-5, what do you aspire for? What do you aspire here in the West? What do you aspire here as a Vietnamese person?

I guess that Western lifestyle is greatest pursuit. You can have a OK life but to have a full life is to reach I think.

You learn and grow and get to the point where you are hopefully productive in your interests. I think the feeling is the most filling and top feeling at a mature age and where you are by yourself.

I think you realize this later. You have interests but it doesn’t pay the 9-5 and have the money for a family and home.

But later you can obsess in it and make it work? You also realize this later.

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The problem I have is the maturing to old age part where I like to be unbothered and be independent. Young people and “cultured people” focus on people so much. I grew up in the West so I was divided. I wanted a sense of togetherness with people and also independence.

But as I grow up now and see both the bad parts of people: (1) Young people thinking young and (2) the divide of people sometimes then I want my independence more like Westerners doing my own thing.

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I realized something great. I was talking to my sister about the problems of food and realize a healthcare job that I would like to do that doesn’t cause much discomfort or conflict is a dietician. I don’t mind doing that. I like food and looking at the components of it and how it is made and combined.

How it gets broken down by the body is pretty interesting too.

Add to that my current life, I can do both maybe?

Work in food and computers?

Food has that feel good and has many dimensions.

But computers though …

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The Western way of going out there on your own and doing your own thing is something I really seek. You can do that here in Canada.

It has the best health benefit and doesn’t bother anyone.

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The more you hang out doing your own thing, everything improves.

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You really have to go out and do your own thing regardless of whatever anyone says.