Updates (December 21, 2024)

Life is really different after school …

You really have instances where you are seeing life with it’s pauses and setbacks.

It seems the only thing that is worth it is probably going back to school or doing a thinking job. Working is …

I am working. Being outside of school you build a huge brain in understanding life and world bigger and bigger and always bigger. In school it is small and closed off I think. Outside of school you get to really sit there and think without the onslaught of people constantly pushing their agenda and views. Outside, outside, you really look at life without the politics and the drama. It is good and better than I expected. You are really opening your mind instead of the ‘programming’ of life. It is good to relax and see the world.

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I am not sure but it really seems to me that now everyone has something. I used to think so young and think that we are in some balancing act. But really if you get old with the mature people, ‘Canadians’ expect something good and new from you. That is what life supposed to be.

Growing up in Canada, people tugged on one another vying for attention, control and power. But really when you are working for yourself finally in the world, you are doing something singular for yourself. It is just you at the end.

And no one can define you. You are on your own really.

The more you are out there, the more you see this.

But again, you got to look out for each other.

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When you get really old like middle-age, people see an “old person”. The youth is gone really.

The wants and yearning is basically gone.

It seems I had to wait until I was old until I got treated better.

Young people have their own ideologies and how things are supposed to run and how people are supposed to be treated. But when you get old you are just a person.

The more confrontations you have, the more people see each other as having agendas to make themselves important.

Old age you see through everything and realize everyone wants to be themselves and grow and develop to show something of value.

You get tired of people pushing their agendas and themselves. People do that until it doesn’t work. Pushing just yourself and your agendas even has its limitations.

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I have to go outside to learn about the “system” at all angles and degrees to learn how to live in Canada.

I was couped inside since the pandemic …

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After finishing school, I realized the reality of life but 99% solid this time. While I was in school I did not care as much …

I am a coloured person, all I really have is my mind.

You have to ignore the naysayers and work on your mind until there is nothing left …

In Vietnam, every student is pushed to use their mind. In Canada, not really.

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The duality of Toronto:

There are different ethnic neighborhoods. It is alright. It is OK.

But when everyone is out and about Friday night on Yonge and Dundas, everyone is put in their group in the gradient.

It sucks. You just hang around in your group talking about your group and the problems of your group and the good things about group dynamics.

It is what it is …

But you can actually improve it if you wait long enough and cherish the good things in life.