Updates (December 10, 2024)
I went to the new medical facility in Whitby for my mom and brother today. They were waiting and getting checked up by the medical providers. Things I learned at my age while my mom is a pretty old senior now.
- I met really old people and seniors there getting checked by medical staff. We sat together. The mindset of me being Vietnamese was to just be treated human and to get along. The oldest and mature ‘Canadian’ people there understood and gave me comfort. There was no competition or racism with them. We just old souls wanting comfort in socialization and being taken care of. You can look at medical care at old age as socialization and care.
- The younger and more vigorous patients had something to prove but are sick and need to socialize and be cared for. At the extreme end of life is “thinking”. I saw incredible minds at the health center. Then you realize life was to explore and push your forward thinking. But in reality maybe for me is to think unique solutions however they are. Going through life just doing and learning is fine for the most people, but I can not walk the same path as I feel I am different and unique. Well you have to be unique and be yourself. I am a coloured person so the race thing is really something. It is something that shapes your thinking too besides doing normal things. The forwardness of the West is so good but as a Vietnamese born in Canada, I could not really do the same things as ‘Canadians’ as I felt different and did not have a foundation to start and grow from that I felt. I can not be just ‘Canadian’ because I was just born here. But the cool forwardness is really cool and unites thinking minds.
- Coloured people have forward minds but are ‘cultured’. What I see is OK and good for Vietnamese and maybe some other coloured people. So I guess I keep doing my thing as I am not as forward as ‘Canadians’.
- Then you realize the working with Ben Cybulski is normal. You have to think so forward and continue to work with the greatest minds. This is for health and growth and forward abundant thinking.
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I visited my high school friend in Ajax who is Vietnamese too the other day. We discussed life. His sister is a professional in research and is a pro in physics. Isn’t that life? If you are going to live here in North America, you got to do the math so well and good to have a life of thought to survive here instead of working temp jobs.
How will you survive yourself if it is not in thought? I guess you can work service jobs and just accept that.
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But seriously now at my age and experience, what job is good for me to have pension and retain knowledge and grow?
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What do Vietnamese from Vietnam want who never been to a Western country before and lived for at least 5 years ‘working’ in the West. School doesn’t matter in the count. 5 years working outside only.
Vietnamese from Vietnam think obtaining a CEO position at an American company or a software engineer position at Google just takes ‘effort’.
It depends mostly on the individual. If you are born in the West you have to be so smart and think like an American to account for all things that the native born American can and can not see.
Your height and looks matter and how you think too. I have a problem. Because I was born in Canada, I think different from a Vietnamese born in Vietnam. I did not have the foundation of knowing that I am Vietnamese. So I am kind of Westernized and I am blunt sometimes. I need to work on that being less blunt and working through things.
Also I am not really a serious thinker. I can not code 17 hours a day. I do my own thing which I can in Canada. Some people understand my life and perspective. Most Vietnamese who have lived in the West for 7-8 years understand me and think my life is ‘my life’.
They see how I am in the West and accept it as a way for health, growth and freedom to produce with the individual mind.
The more I encounter other Vietnamese, I learn from them and do my thing more with the knowledge learned. It seems the only group I can really learn from solidly without the cultural problems is other Vietnamese. There is solid foundation in networking with Vietnamese from all over the world. I guess that is what it is.
We Vietnamese have to learn from each other to grow in steps. We have to accept that. We have to accept growth and to learn from each other.
When I learned life was hard and the ceiling was up in the sky 1 million miles away, I learned to learn and adapt and not get angry. I learned to learn from others and help others too so we have that back and forth helping and learning from each other. It took years and many trials to learn from other coders to finally feel comfortable in coding and just sit there and code. Also I had to venture out in the world to see old mature perspectives that were nice and abundant thinking.
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I understand now in life sometimes you got to push and have your say then see what happens. Sometimes you have to interject to just think. But everything is OK mostly as people like to voice their thoughts and concerns when they feel their mindset and thinking is not the same as others. Because I was born here in Canada, some immigrants see things based on their part of the world where they came from. Only the ones born in the West accept me mostly. Therefore I avoid immigrant populations??? I guess that is the whole point.
I guess that is why my parents don’t want me living in Scarborough. But Mississauga is fine as that is where Vietnamese are and have the same mindset as me.
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I guess you really have to work hard and improve yourself everyday. Sometimes it looks bleak and you are frustrated and in despair. Then you reset. You don’t want to be a ‘slave’.
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You have to write and share your unique wisdom.
I saw this in my email box ‘Medium.com‘:
The world needs more writers. More thinkers. More people who have something to say, sharing their insights. Does that sound like someone you know?
There is nothing wrong voicing your opinion and voice. That is how you grow and develop.
I am one of the oldest Vietnamese born in the West after the Vietnam War. I do have an unique perspective as a newcomer facing what Canada is. I work with Ben Cybulski and other cool people. That is unique and I worth sharing.
People paint negative old stereotypical things about you. That is just life. But you see it as just a thought they have and whatever and move on to do things. After the dust settles then move on together.
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The cool thing with some people is that they take the time to understand people individually and see what is up. They take the time to see how you developed if you developed LOL! They do this instead of negatively labelling people and walking away and leaving it at that.
I like to think and do stuff.
Mixed in with people sometimes I have to think in the group and the hierarchy.
But it doesn’t help so whatever. I do what I feel like and things just progress.
You can not conform when the odds are bad and outcome is always negative LOL!
I guess that is life here in Canada. You do what you can. And then things change for the better in an unexpected way.
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You have to develop into a unique person. That is all. That is what makes life, life here in Canada.
You have to develop the mind until all the negative projections pass and become just words and then you can really think and talk and do some real and serious unique talking.
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I knew deep down inside me, I could just do what I want here in Canada being born here.
Somehow, I needed to explore the world too.
Exploring the world is needed. But you need a mentor to show you the way how to think beyond the generalities and stereotypes and do better and accept the challenge to do better and think different and unique. Also I needed the foundation and resources to feel relaxed and not stressed. Canada gave that to me. I met amazing people here that taught me everything the West had to offer.
That is why I am content inside.