Updates (December 4, 2024)

Life at middle-age is to mature with smarter people. I think that is all there is. You can not do things all alone.

It is working with smarter people who are miles more mature than you that opens doors and minds like working with Ben.

Some people don’t grow because what they believe is old stereotype about themselves and people. They hold onto stationary beliefs and they idle.

When you are in my shoes, you naturally keep going because I am past that young adulthood and work with Ben. It is simple like that.

Everyone can work past their old belief systems and work with cool people like Ben and others. That is how simple it goes. Nothing more than that.

… basically I met some people that held onto old beliefs about me and they were not amused when I did not fit the stereotype they wanted to control and demean for their sake. People grow old and change. People do learn. It will get to a point where you learn and have to grow because not growing is detrimental to your life … and people forget people. I work with Ben and other cool people. I guess people need to find people to work with and grow …

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It is so important to build structure and more structure. But most importantly to build your own ‘thing and perspective’ that reflects you and your problems. You have to. I had to. You have to nourish and build your yourself. Build your perspective and build your values.

Anyways when people see that you have risen past 16 years old teenager stereotypes that people hold they are either upset or respect it and learn. Most don’t see anything beyond 1 layer. The North American way of cutting down people is always there in society and the world. Some people grow up and stop doing that and their is some don’t do that cutting. Most of the time people don’t see the uniqueness in everyone and their plight. They just see race and red.

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It was nice going outside travelling. Some people respect you, some challenge you and some people are upset. As an old person who has done some stuff, I guess that is life. Natural life.

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After travelling outside, I realize the best life you can have is to work on yourself here in Canada. 99.9999% of ‘Canadians’ respect that and welcome that type of ongoing improvement. It sets a different tone. Similar to what they do.

If you are about money and just doing stuff for status, not many ‘Canadians’ respect that. And a man is all about respect. Respect gives a man everything he wants really. It will give him moral boost and health for sure to run that extra 100 miles.

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It is good to go out once in a while. But when you go to ‘Toronto’ and meet the people working there, it could be horrible because people there have these 1-layer superficial negative stereotypes of others mostly. People live and breathe stereotypes. People just label and make assumptions because it is like that there.

It does nothing really to help anyone mostly. It is almost 100% negative stereotyping just to categorize and down label on the spot for their benefit. People feed on that. Not everyone but it is there. That is how society is mostly.

After growing up and hitting my 40, I spent time alone and working with smarter and nicer people and became more deeper and different working in the suburbs of Oshawa, Ontario working with my friends. I am not sure if I could do that in the city with the constant negativity. Only a certain group is unaffected.

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It is a good thing that I am older and older looking. People on the transit see an old guy doing something with his life and they walk away and distance themselves. Many people don’t expect that in 2024 with how things are going normally. Most people expect the wheels to go off at that age.

Well I had to do what I needed to do in my circumstances and you have to if you were me.

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Solution to life is to have a pot of coffee and do some venting and ruminating and then do YouTube tutorials. That is life. Just go out once in a while. At a certain point in your life you can really sit there and focus on your craft at home with the Internet and messaging apps. Focusing on your craft is what everyone in the universe respects.

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Also it is really good to think about life and society. You can draw up ideas and conclusions to use later for your own development.

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The people that fight or refute you now will see your vision in time. It might take 1 day or 20 years. They just need to learn and work with smarter and nicer people like Ben.

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I talked to my friend and I finally understand how to live better. Nothing is 100% good or bad. I guess that is how I will live from now on. I was thinking polarized at one extreme. My friend is a doctor. Basically everything is not good or bad.

Just do what you want. It is not good or bad. That is how doctors decide. That is how to rationalize.

I will work and have a family now. Not going extreme hobbying LOL!

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When you have studied a lot and experienced life a lot, you can put people in boxes if they are projecting immaturity to you. And you can show that to them. You have to think bigger to open up your consciousness and aura. It will bring you so much depth and reach. All it took was working in my field and then working with cool people.