Updates (December 4, 2024)
Life at middle-age is to mature with smarter people. I think that is all there is. You can not do things all alone.
It is working with smarter people who are miles more mature than you that opens doors and minds like working with Ben.
Some people don’t grow because what they believe is old stereotype about themselves and people. They hold onto stationary beliefs and they idle.
When you are in my shoes, you naturally keep going because I am past that young adulthood thinking and work with Ben and others. It is simple like that.
Everyone can work past their old belief systems and work with cool people like Ben and others. That is how simple it goes. Nothing more than that.
… basically I met some people that held onto old beliefs about me and they were not amused when I did not fit the stereotype they wanted. They wanted to control and demean others for their sake and ‘health’. People grow old and change. People do learn. It will get to a point where you learn and have to grow because not growing is detrimental to your life … and people forget people. I work with Ben and other cool people. I guess people need to find people to work with and grow … Some people are still immature and young and don’t know how to work with others.
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It is so important to build structure and more structure. You feel the need when you get older and past general lifestyles. But most importantly to build your own ‘thing and perspective’ that reflects you and your problems. You have to. I had to. You have to nourish and build you yourself. Build your perspective and build your values.
Anyways when people see that you have risen past 16 year old teenager stereotypes that people hold they are either upset or respect it and learn. Most don’t see anything beyond 1-layer. The North American way of cutting down people is always there in society and the world until you are like 60 years old. Some people grow up and stop doing that and their is some don’t do that cutting. Most of the time people don’t see the uniqueness in everyone and their plight. They just see race and red. Sometimes cutting allows people to grow. Sometimes the cutting is so 1-layer that you just got to walk away and ignore. Again you can not act 16 years old for 50 years.
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It was nice going outside travelling. Some people respect you, some challenge you and some people are really upset. As an old person who has done some stuff, I guess that is life. Natural life.
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After travelling outside, I realize the best life you can have is to work on yourself here in Canada. 99.9999% of ‘Canadians’ respect that and welcome that type of ongoing improvement. It sets a different tone. Similar to what they do.
If you are about money and just doing stuff for status, not many ‘Canadians’ respect that. And a man is all about respect. Respect gives a man everything he wants really. It will give him moral boost and health for sure to run that extra 100 miles or more.
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It is good to go out once in a while. But when you go to ‘Toronto’ and meet the people working there, it could be horrible because people there have these 1-layer superficial negative stereotypes of others mostly. People live and breathe stereotypes. People just label and make assumptions because it is like that there.
It does nothing really to help anyone mostly. Some people with experience and smarts can tolerate and grow from it. But it is almost 100% negative stereotyping just to categorize and down label on the spot for their benefit. People feed on that. Not everyone but it is there. That is how society is mostly.
After growing up and hitting 40, I spent time alone and working with smarter and nicer people and became more deeper and different working in the suburbs of Oshawa, Ontario working with my friends. I am not sure if I could do that in the city with the constant negativity. Only a certain group is unaffected.
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It is a good thing that I am older and older looking. People on the public transit see an old guy doing something with his life and they walk away and distance themselves. Many people don’t expect that in 2024 with how things are going normally these days. Most people expect my wheels to go off at that age.
Well I had to do what I needed to do in my circumstances and you have to if you were me.
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Solution to life is to have a fresh pot of coffee and do some venting and ruminating and then do YouTube tutorials. That is life. Just go out once in a while. At a certain point in your life you can really sit there and focus on your craft at home with the Internet and messaging apps. Focusing on your craft is what everyone in the universe respects.
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Also it is really good to think about life and society as you grow and grow. You spend time outside to socialize then reflect at all ages. You can draw up ideas and conclusions to use later for your own development.
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The people that fight or refute you now will see your vision in time. It might take 1 day or 20 years. They just need to learn and work with smarter and nicer people like Ben.
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I talked to my friend and I finally understand how to live better. Nothing is 100% good or bad. I guess that is how I will live from now on. I was thinking polarized at one extreme. My friend is a doctor. Basically everything is not good or bad.
Just do what you want. It is not good or bad. That is how doctors decide. That is how to rationalize.
I will work and have a family now. Not going extreme hobbying LOL! But I wish I could. Maybe if I move elsewhere I can …
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When you have studied a lot and experienced life a lot, you can put people in boxes if they are projecting immaturity to you. And you can show that to them. You have to think bigger to open up your consciousness and aura. It will bring you so much depth and reach. All it took was working in my field and then working with cool people.
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If you were me, you see how I am cut down constantly and have to do the things I have to. Again nothing is 100%. The people not seeing my way is right and wrong. It is always 50-50. But at the end of the day out of the negative young adult life of society, you can have a pleasant time in Canada doing your thing from where you want to perch taking your sweet time and sipping your coffee. Most ‘Canadians’ respect what I do like Ben and Allan. Just stick with same frequency friends I guess. That is just life.
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Are some people just born having their interests and resilience? I wonder now how much I enjoy doing what I am doing alone. And how much I enjoy socializing and getting out there.
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Walking out into general society is OK. But at the end it is your true connections. I see it culturally really. If I did not socialize with Vietnamese people I would have been lost and a mess and never achieved anything meaningful to me. I have to be in my world as people are in theirs.
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It takes time to reset.
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Everyone has their reasons. But there has to be growth and building. So there is no reasons???
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It is really odd now talking to younger people who haven’t gone through growth like I did. It is actually best to avoid them??? All they do is talk negative.
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After the negativity and the dust settles, let people know how they want to be treated from the world perspective and then greater.