Updates (November 4, 2024)

After socializing with Vietnamese people in North America, this reel is true:

https://www.instagram.com/reel/C_nYGFrO8jB/?utm_source=ig_web_copy_link

You are supposed to read and write everyday what you feel is right. It is practical for growth.

This is especially true when you are older. There is more meaning to life. As you grow and get old you need to increase your health.

I had to socialize with Vietnamese people in North America to get engaged in lifelong permanent social circles and to be held accountable for all my actions and words.

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You are supposed to work and do things and study anyways regardless of what anyone says:

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DBwwjSsBAmQ/?utm_source=ig_web_copy_link

You are supposed to be driven by your purpose and it is yours. It is between you and God. Learn, practice and build anyways.

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After doing what I am trying to prove, everything is kind of meaningless. Even when you look at it from the Western angle of being born here.

Subconsciously and not, I tried to study and prove something of worth. But now that I am done what does it mean in the West? It means whoever is still with me at then end understands and accepts me the way I am. Being born in the West has this duality. I guess Western born people really understand this and accept it?

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Really and deep down inside, not trying hard in life is bad. It is really healthy to try hard and build yourself up if you are born here in Canada regardless of whatever people say to you or about it.

There is a part of you that wants to live simply and free. But after initial school for me finishing in 2009 and working, there is only the hard way of living to push to reach further???

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What I found more and more and finally is to create your own niche instead of finding a niche as a Canadian born citizen now.

https://www.instagram.com/p/DBuaT4ts_G4/?utm_source=ig_web_copy_link

This way you can discard the opposing people within a niche.

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When you are socializing with Vietnamese born in North America things are different.

Things kind of have a different meaning.

You are held accountable and are not …

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When you get really old, the old teachings you find on the Internet no longer have the same meaning. You have grown so old that life is looking right back at you asking what are you going to do? What are you going to do as a old man for the next 20 to maybe 40 years? Realistically 20.

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Parents who have kids in North America, what do they really think about their kids? Because of the supports here in Canada are they really worried and push? Seems like they don’t care as much and whatever happens, happens ultimately.

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The most polaristic thing about being born in Canada and living here in Canada is the harsh reality of different mindsets among people of different races.

As you get older and achieved your goals in maturity (growth and knowledge), it doesn’t matter really. But you needed to learn that and grow up learning about it and weaving your way around it and in it.

As a old person once you achieved a lot and lots more, you realize it was a growing thing. And now you can just live doing what you want disregarding race mindset mainly.

The main thing is that you had to understand how other Vietnamese from North America traverse it and you must grow alongside them.

Also when you get so old and you lose all your youthful looks and look like a old person, you see people as people.

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It is different talking to people from overseas sometimes. They usually have lots of expectations especially because they don’t have PR or citizenship.

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If you are born here in Canada, it is really hard to compete in work. You are mainly left doing the things you love.

You have that angle if you do what you love then things can go really good in doing something passionate with not restrictions in money and time and support.

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It is really beneficial in the West to really go all the way in your passions. Everyday people do see that and like it. They are usually surprised to see that you made the effort to follow through your wishes and they wish the same for themselves if they did. They admire the effort it took. They feel they should have taken the time to do the same and even might try to do their passions now after seeing you attain it.

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At my age of 40, I understand really now that you should really live your dreams here in Canada. When I was working at a large supermarket nights at 33 years old, I met a younger Canadian who said to me all he wants to do is work as a cashier part-time while living at home with his parents and make video games for himself and his friends and family. That is what his dream was at that time. Money and profits wasn’t the goal.

This made me think and churn.

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It is so important to learn I realize more and more now.

After you get to a point where you can really do stuff, then you realize it was all worth it.

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After socializing tons with Vietnamese in North America, I realize the cold hard truth is that it maybe just life working.

Your life can revolve around work.

Life at its peak can revolve around thinking work.

Once you get to this level, you don’t complain no more about life and all its problems.

You accept that life was to get to this level of thinking and do work in thinking and the mind.

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The life changing thing was to socialize with more Vietnamese people. Things are held accountable and there is a foundation for growth.

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When you realize the dynamics of education and race in North America, then you become mindful.

As a person of color you are supposed to study as much as you can until you reach a nice spot where you see the landscape.

You maintain your health and education levels understanding what you have to do to maintain your longevity and health.

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My parents yell and preach all the time to get your education while they are alive and well still here in Canada.

When I go to work, I am met with the fact that work takes over every single thought and minute of my time.

You can not think greater or outside of work to grow most of the time unless you have “The Thinking Jobs”. And those thinking jobs requires at least 20 years of working experience.

20 years either after university or when you started at 9 years old …

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After programming for 4+ years since 2020, I came across this YouTube channel: https://www.youtube.com/@DevToolsMadeSimple

After programming for a while you learn from this channel. It explains broad and wide programming. It explains so far back, back 70 years. It gives you that knowledge and peace of mind to fixate you on a the wide foundation to learn and speak from after you have been programming awhile. This is programming life.

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I always have problems growing.

After a while you have to ignore everyone and everything and just grow and disregard stoppage from others.

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After school, work and more (more computing and learning and doing coding), it seems like the group where I can socialize with is still the old computer group I visited 20 years back at HardwareCanucks.com forums.

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After getting this far in life, it seems the people that really get life are people who spent the time to grow until they just think and think.

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Realistically, that is 99.9999%, the only people that should criticize you and make you feel are the ones born in the same situation like you. That means other Vietnamese born in Canada.

It is good to hear other people but the one perspective that sticks are the ones exactly in your situation.

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It took me 40 years to get out of all awkwardness. Most of it was solved through socializing with Vietnamese in Canada and focusing on my craft.

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To really live life I see now is to focus on a craft like engineering and do it so well.

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Life in Canada is really study and work. But in a supportive way.

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Finally after seeing Vietnamese people born in Canada in 2021, I realized they have Western dreams. As I watched them grow it showed me that life born here in Canada is to attain something that has meaning to you so you maintain your health and spirit. I watched people attain higher degrees and even get into the arts and that made me finally ‘feel’. They are really creative doing something that has so much meaning and value to them and Western. The amount of creativeness that goes into what they do is unreal. They push with all their might. It is all earthly creative. It is beyond them.

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Life outside and somewhat inside is quite negative. People project negativity all the time. People feel kind of lost and drifting after school. I realized this now after 1+ years finishing school and after work. You really have to keep working on yourself and your craft to grow you. Focusing on your craft will give you all the good growth and good feelings. This is after I learned from my fellow Vietnamese from Vietnam. The Western Vietnamese I think will have to focus on their craft to maintain health and drive here in the West.

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You can get reliant on others, but to live great and full, you got to push and see the rigor and do your pursuits. You have to have both I think for me.

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If you don’t do your creative dreams as a Canadian, then you might have nothing here in Canada.

Can you really live that way? Just doing your dreams?

It may be the only way to life healthy.

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