Updates (August 26, 2024)

After talking to my family and friends, I realized the meaning of life is to just raise nice kids.

I think it just stinks being a minority like myself working out in the public sector sometimes. I deal with it OK but I would rather stick my head behind a computer screen and process to rise free from the bad stereotypes. But because I look old, most people don’t attach stereotypes. So I guess life is a mature thing. Also I should really do what I want to avoid thinking like this. When you truly do what you love then peoples opinion doesn’t matter I think.

When you get highly technical then you bypass all the problems with people because you have different avenues to go to do things. You can actually do different things apart from the people you currently work at. What is expected of you goes out and what you like is in. This is apart from everyone else in the world. Really you become a single identity in the world. No collectivism or group thinking. This is a old age thing once you get old. You come to this conclusion when you finally done what you wanted, interact with people who oppose and question you. Also you see this in much older people like seniors shopping.

You just get old and need to learn and think different and away. That is all there is when you can not use your body no more. I see this now.

If you don’t learn and use your mind and body, you will lose it.