My dad today treated me so bad as he is in his own world …

This is because of the dual-axis Dalit being in this universe. Complicated shit.

Because of family birthing and order in Durham and North America … I am the Asian one.

Dad, older sister, older brother and little sister are Western.

I was the servant as I was the kid in the middle as I was a boy. Last male child is the servant and helper.

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I went crazy the other day as I was yearning for independence and growth while my dad treated me as his Asian helper son still after 42 years in Durham Oshawa.

Where is my house, car and family?

We are all experimenting. Dad never thought this day would come.

Basically my dad treated me as the helper Asian son for 42 years … but at 40 years expects me to act Asian-Western like him and bold and strong. Do you see the problem?

I get treated at home as the helper, get treated outside in Oshawa like the helper, get treated in Toronto as a helper … but my dad and older sister and older brother and mom are like why aren’t you like a bold CEO?

They can not see that in North America there is the boss and workers as they are also the workers to white-Canadians. They are worried what the white-woman at the checkout stand is treating them … while I am the bottom rung slave.

So if I don’t have a family of my own in Asian/coloured/partly-white part of Canada I will go wacky. I need a family now and independence as I was treated like a slave for all my life for my family and the world.

Time and growth has made me come this far.

It is all biology. Time to change for grandchildren and not act like young adults no more everyone. Biology, biology … biology.

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Now my dad will probably sell everything and they will move back to Vietnam or go back to school without me.

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Live is an experiment let see what happens.

Time to experiment as I have accomplished some.

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So that was the answer in life.

The South Asians and East Asians targeting me don’t see age and maturity … they see a monkey Vietnamese man doing software that disturbs them.

But outside in the world you do think like young adults.

But there is biology and time and withering away … wait till you are in you 80s … 90s … 120s … people pestering me. At that time you are old and not good looking enough to stay outdoors and stay indoors …

Plastic surgery and botox?

Does this generation not accept old age? and wisdom of being old and wise? Are there any teachings of life at old stages. If you don’t what happens to your children and grand children and great grand children?

You before your great grand children?

This generation was taught about themselves only. Did not walk the path of their parents and grandparents. Why when that is natural?